kopi tiam dah bukak

2007-04-16T21:54:00.000+08:00

I HAD A FUCKING BAD DAY.

RIGHT FROM THE MORNING.

TILL I REACHED HOME.

I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU
I HATE YOU

OK. here's the story.

HAD mornign broadcast today but guess what? I was woken up by my dad at 6.25am!!!!!! actually, more by Ama's call coz when my dad woke me up, im like, no need go so early. Not his fault ok. just that, i was supposed to wake up at 4am to bloody complete my AQ and do some slight studying so that i won't be late for the morning broadcast. I thought i didn't hear the alarm but a quick glane at it showed that there's still alarm! AND OMFG lah, i actually set it at 6.30am!

WHAT THE BLOOODY FUCK.

AND THEN, by 6.35 i was down, flagging taxi's. FUCK THOSE DRIVERS THAT HAD NO PASSENGERS BUT BLATANTLY DIDN'T GO MY WAY. YES. FUCK YOU.

ergh. ok ok, not fair to them but hellllllooooo, if you see a STUDENT flagging for a fuckin' cab in the morning, you know it's not small business ok.

my ct asked me to dye my hair black again because the brown was soooo fucking obvious (not at the very least to me) but i swear i didn't do anythig after i dyed it last year. so it must be the sun. or it's just me. HAHA.

so yeahs. had to see sum tch, who was disappointed in me because "you're one of the few dj's we look up upon...."

then i got bored during the soccer match but enjoyed the company of the floorballers and some other people.

THEN, at least got my AQ done in school w fira and fizah.

after that, went home with yeah, you know and then called my brother andhe told me got nasi goreng at home, so ok fine. I cancelled my plans of eating dinner outside. then I HAD TO GO HOME BLOODY ALONE UH and had to walk for a far far distance from that blooody bus stop becoz i took 187. So, having ate, the last time at lunch, between 11.40-12.40 of course i WAS FUCKING TIRED UH.

but only to reach home to NO NASI GORENG. coz sumhow, somebody finished it up and all that's left is marcaroni soup. IM FUCKING HUNGRY AND YOU EXPECT ME TO EAT SOME SOUP DISH????

HEELLLOOOO!!!!

ERGH.

what an entry laden with bright red dots.
beeeen a looong time since i had this kinda entry.

GO AWAY LAH YOU.

2007-03-30T00:03:00.000+08:00

this will be a super duper long post. i know i've abandoned my blog. oh wells. at least im updating it now.

conversation between me and dearest harris.

◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
eh
◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
2mr what time?
◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
AND DISGUSTING UH UR DP

[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
hahah
[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
tml come anytime after 5 ah

◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
ok

[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
that dp is nt what u think it is
[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
hah

◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
then..u using ADULT DIAPERS uh?

[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
ahah
[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
no la
[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
i using pillow to protect my there

◣✲ ɱǻɱȃʓĕȇǡʂʈǎ ✲◢ - Yes says:
HAHA

[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
my fren squeezin ppls balls ah
[SINFUL]-BTT passed!! ahah says:
ahha

_that's it

Okayyye, as some of you may / may not know, i've already turned eighteen. YAY.

thanks to all those who called me up at the stroke of midnite, though i was sleepy, leaving me msg-es / comments / testimonials at friendster / sms-ing the entire day to wish me happy birthday, called me up, even though i havent heard from you in like a zillion years/ wish me via MSN / gave me birthday wishes in or out of school/ giving me gifts which make me smile like an idiot. HAHAHAHAHAHA, treating me to stuffs.

ariff. seri. sak. deebz. hafiz yusuff. aishah kusairi. alex. abg hafidz. didid. abg shahrul. adeel. nazreen. nadiah. sling. tul. farah. rodhiah. fira. sahrinah. syahir. hashir. vicky. jared. hidayah. jannah. nazilah. syahmeer.boon jie. delia. helmi. alane beryl t mercado. wani. syafiq. bari. jeff. khairyn. sabrina. dinie. muhaimin. nisa. nash. ama. haaziq. my family. some strangers on friendster. cheryl. ain. kamielah. and if i forgot that you wished me, please don't be mad and not wish me on my next birthday ok. toooo many lah, can't remember. oh, and belated birthday presents are still accepted ok.

thank you all, for making my birthday, a birthday. i still want to go sentosa!

Oh, and my block tests results?

D E S U U.

D - Malay Lit (at least i passed ok!)

E - GP (another 0.5 marks to get a D)

S - Physics (dumb mistakes)

U - Chem

U - Maths (another 1 mark to an S, though S is still a fail, it beats a U like, totally)

So yeahs. expected. but somehow, unexpected and so, disappointed.
nehmind. i don't expect you to know what im talking about. HAHA.

alah, A levels only 6 more months waaat!!! LIKE THAT'S A LONG TIME UH!

oh, and NAPFA TESTS ON MONDAY AND TUESDAY!

YE WANI, I'LL SHAKE MY ASS MORE AND -HAK- GO FORWARD AND RUN FASTER OK! HAHAHAHAHA..i shall meet you soon dear!

i love KL's . lovelies and him, oh, and you too.

2007-03-24T23:55:00.000+08:00

I PAMPERED MYSELF TODAY. I think i deserve it, for all the wrong reasons though. because i wanted to cheer myself up for not putting in a lot of effort for block tests. so, yeah. (ok, that was just a reason untuk sedapkan hati lah konon. )

I AM VERY VERY VERY HAPPY.

I LOVE SAK. HEH. BUT I OWE SAK 12 BUCKS. HEH.

remind me ok, to pay u back.

and i thought i could end it off by spending time with him. but things don't always go as planned.
"im sick, im tired. n i still care 2 luv her n give her attention. she's sick, she's tired. n she dont `1 2 layan my nonsense.........im sori, always im sori."

i am so overwhelmed by emotions right now. i better shut up before im quoted against my will.

i love you.
i really do.

but i can't stand it. i just..

2007-03-22T22:41:00.000+08:00

you know, i read through my previous posts and realise that i've been ranting on and on about my studies. HAHA. or to be more accurate, my "unhappiness". kinda funny.

ohkaye, last paper today. MALAY LANGUAGE AND LITERATURE. actually, prettaaaaayyyyeee okay. :)
i think that was the best paper for me.

eh, im not your typical malay girl good at malay language ok but honestly, all the other papers sucked. physics was quite allright. maths - needless to say, was a goner. chem, another goner.

but im quite sceptical about my mll results, because, well, I FLUNKED IT DURING PROMOS LAST YEAR. heh. hope that won't be repeated. i was happy because I SPOTTED THE CORRECT SAJAK.

am i good or am i good?

SAK, tak sia-sia aku belajar KEBANJIRAN SAHAJA.

and yes, i'll be finally dating sak this saturday. GIRLS DAY OUT. we'll cam-whore. set?

and secret agent. must cancel our date uh 2mr. HAHA. next week or what lah ok?

and oooooohhh yes. getting my act together. somehow, i just NEED to do badly for one of the major tests / exams to be inspired to do well in the next. when i could have just consistently do well for all.

" the old farzaana had lots of discipline and knew what she wanted. play hard and work equally hard. i want to see that person again" - a very dear friend of mine who knew me since 13!!!!!!!. thanks, for having faith in me, giving me the encouragement to at least not give up. we'll pull through together ok? or rather, you'll pull me through. (ok, now that sounds blaaaaaaahhdyyy wrong!)

LET'S GO ZEE!

oh, AND "my cab no romance ar. you want romance go hotel" .
the best part? we weren't even romancing.

2007-03-19T00:55:00.000+08:00

BLOCK TESTS TOMORROW.
BLOCK TESTS TOMORROW.
BLOCK TESTS TOMORROW.

somehow, when i'm always on my feet, i'll have more things to blog about but less time to do it and as such, i've sorta lost my blogging mojo.

it may come back.
perhaps after retail therapies IMMEDIATELY when block tests are OVER.

oh, for the record, my preparation for the block tests didn't even hit the BARE MINIMUM.

good job zee. well done. aren't you sooo proud of yourself?

"if you fail any subjects, you'll have to choose between HOCKEY and NMA" - he who shall not be named.

DANG. DANG. DANG.

oh, by the way, S.O.C PIX ARE UP.

WWW.MAMAZEEASTA.MULTIPLY.COM

just that, i havent really sorted out the pre-performance pix. so yeah. tt'll come soon.

and yes, i do realise that im not using the normal size font. just felt like it.

i sleep with my guns when you're gone.

2007-02-28T11:42:00.000+08:00

waaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaaaaa

ok. im waiting for GP to start right now and as i am typing, the teacher is setting up.

i just have the SUDDEN urge to blog. weeeee.

just had chem SPA. ok lah. i just hope the skill D is sufficient and RELEVANT. HAHA.
physics test and maths test are SURE-GONERS.

ooohh..and im excited uh today!

coz we'll be doing some filming. HEH.

ok ok. bottom line is, im just bored and crazy right now. during lesson time, right!!!!

and..let's go people's park!!!!

and and..this saturday. weeeeeeeeee...let's hope everything works out. then i can have my cam back( fyi, my dearie deebz has been holding on to my cam since 10 feb ), money money money...then ~~SHOPPING~~. OK.

that's only a PLAN and you know, sometimes, plans are just not meant to be followed. think study plans.

oh, and my dad is sooooo worried about my plans post-A. he keeps looking out for adverts and telling me about it and keeps asking what i want to do.

the best part is, i know what i want. but i dont think he'll like it. and, other than that, realistic plans? none!

hehe.

and for that matter, im artistic and entreprising. it's proven.
so can somebody tell me what on earth am i doing in Science again, ? and erm, maybe why am i in jc in the first place????

2007-02-26T23:30:00.000+08:00

i just told sak this morning that i have a dead blog.

dead in every sense.

oh, and speaking of this morning, i met one of my old flames from the year 2006.heh. funny. it's seriously unexpected. then, all of a sudden, scenes of late night rides from town to home flashed back. haha. that was when i learn u can't use loooooose clothes when you ride a bike coz the air will "inflate" it and make you look like one of thouse Klumps. i nearly had that experience, but thankfully, i am smart enough. and you really need a jacket, especially when travelling home about midnight. the wind is just sooo chilling.

oh well, that's all in the past.

i hope sling dearie will like her bdae pressie - a forever 21 top. haha. i hope i'll bring it lah in the first place.

and today was just a BAD day.
maths and physics can rot in the oven.
chem SPA wednesday.

A lvl results friday - i soooo want to catch up with the peeps. we shall see how since i have this career fair at suntec and most probably a hockey friendly vs pj after that at NTU-NIE. we shall see how.

i am kinda losing my motivation to actually complete the A's. serious.

not joking.

2007-02-21T13:25:00.000+08:00

im in school right now.

wooohh..chatting with jeff on the phone, with naz and syafiq on MSN.

hahahahahahahahahaha....

ok ok ok. distracted by jeff.

2007-02-17T19:56:00.000+08:00

i had a great valentine's day.

thanks for the flowers, cakes, chocolates, perfume,cosmetics,softies,dress.
most of all, thank you. much love.

heh. and im a LOVE YOUR BODY member. haha.
all happened last year, oh you dumdums, that's under THE BODY SHOP not some slimming thingy.

and the thing is, i love shopping at TBS because i love pampering myself, or rather, my body ad coincidentally, the LYB thingy is also about the same thing. haha. yes yes, i didn't even read before signing up. honest.

and TOPSHOP has hot hot thongs for only 9buckeroos. calling all my ladies, let's go lingerie shopping! ok, i AM serious.

and deebz darling, let's go out next week. and I WANT MY CAMERA BACK! haha..

oh and guess what, i a, trying to manage my finances. HAHA. let's see how quickly the 'scheme' fails.

ok. i seriously am no very sure of what im gonna wear for CNY. i thoughtwe weren't going to celebrate but it appears to not be true. oh, and did i mention that the CNY celebrations in ij this year were pathethic with a big fat PEEEEEEEEEE.
not even one single performance. how more pathetic can that get?

and KL's..let's go out one day.
i miss everybody.

and to all celebrating CNY, xin nian guai lei.
hang bao na lai.

2007-02-12T19:57:00.000+08:00

i didn't go school today.

HURRAH not.

had to attend my chinese uncle's cremation thingy.
pretty sad. i am so lucky to be entwined in both Chinese and Malay customs. and to celebrate both traditions/celebrations.

there's a lot of things done in their custom..such as hiring a band to paly music when the body (which is kept for 3 days straight) is going to be transported into the van to appease the spirit, to entertain it

and when i saw my uncle's face, he had a pearl in between his lips. i was told that would make him "shut up" or according to my aunt, "tu kalau die nak bersuare, tak bersuare sebab sayang pearl tu jadi diam"..yeahs.

update more soon, meanwhile,
my dearest uncle, toh choon wah, may you rest in peace.

2007-02-11T22:37:00.000+08:00

pretty much wanted to upload pix but cammie's with DEEBZ somehow. so nice to see the lovelies again, though i can't spend much time with them.

i@fun was ok. better turnout than expected, for me at least. i hosted from 9-12, with seri dearest and by 1.15, i had to be at the foyer to go to the public dialogue with GRACE FU, on HDB HEARTWARE at AJC. so, basically, i only had like, 45mins to enjoy my i@fun. sheesh.

and so sorry to hishamm, i doubt you'll be reading this. i can't show you around the fair because by the time you reached, i was already at anderson. i felt so bad. luckily you had your fren with you.

and so sorry to helmi too. i cudn't answer your call because i was already in the dialogue.

and it was sooo nice to see DAVID,ADEEL,NAZREEN,VIKNESH.........BOON KIAT...EUGENE..

BUT highlight was- i got to re-live the days when i became the MASTER OF CEREMONY. flattering to hear "good job. i'm impressed" by those people. somehow, i think, it's pretty clear where my talents lie. just that, i've been deluded from them - thinking that you can't survive just like that in Singapore so i decided not to pursue those interests, which i realise, is a dumb thing to do.

honestly, i have very very vague ideas as to what courses im gonna take up in uni, the only thing at the back of head so far is the law courses at SMU; only because SMU's campus is in town. i am pretty much attracted to things and/or places for all the wrong reasons. i am so sure i won't be doing science courses. neither am i gonna do those malay shit.

the only reason why im a science student in jc is because i dont want to waste my 2yrs of taking pure science and end up doing something non-related to it in jc because i thought perhaps, if i stick around with science more often, i might actually want to major in chem or something and earn big bucks and that it would make my life more interesting if my knowledge of the science subjects deepened.

but it looks like im gonna waste 4 years only, hopefully, if i do not have to repeat my A's, of studying science. But still, the options are still left open. I can do practically most of the courses since i have physics, chem and maths.

but im still undecided.

and, at the end of the day, it'll always be my fault again

2007-02-09T22:10:00.000+08:00

i am fucking angry right now.

what the fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck is wrong?

im not saying fuck because i think it's "cool".

it's just a universal language as to which the degree of madness and anger is easily related to or understood.

there's no other word like "fuck", which has multiple( read 7) uses.
i shall stop here.

cam-whoring tomorrow.

and my uncle died yesterday morning. going for his wake 2mr evening i think. (wake because he's the chinese side of the family who is non-muslim). This also means that i can't celebrate chinese new year because following chinese customs, you can't celebrate CNY when your family member(s) pass away i think 40 days before that period. something like that lah.
i'm only half-chinese, so i don't really know these facts well. heh. even the malay traditions still bedazzled me.

i m so gonna miss him because he took care of me when i was very young. second time im losing a beloved person.

but the show must go on

2007-02-07T05:14:00.000+08:00

hi all.

i'm still alive and breathing and doing well.

updates soon!

2007-01-21T01:19:00.000+08:00

EH EH EH, got something to share with you guys...check this out...

"never let someone be your priority, while allowing yourself to be other's option"

nice?

weixing's nick. i just find it meanigful. hahahahah...i told him i think it's nice and he told me it was quoted from sum1 and when i eagerly tired to find out who that smart ass is, he told me it's sum1 whom i not know. is he trying to imply that i only know dumb people? hmph.

anyway, got a glimpse at the costumes today. my god. all of us ladies had glitter ALL OVER OUR BODY. ok..that is an exaggeration but seriously, it's like, everywhere, when that drapy-wapy thing wipe pass your skin, it'll have glitters all over and no, you can't remove it using water.

but everyone said it's nice and "voila, lovely muses".

whatever. ahahah....yes it's fun and all, but seriously, it's very tiring. but come to think of it, the rehearsal sessions are actually pretty relaxed, unlike that of my previous opening ceremony rehearsals yet some already complain. human nature. can't be blamed. and yes, 2 more weeks and it'll be over.

thinking of joing cheerobics but banned those thoughts as intuitively as it came. i can't cope. not with hockey and braodcasting stuff and some other stuff. i need my off days too. if every single day is long, and sunday's my only rest day..woooh...let me just remind myself that im still a student, not a PAID WORKING ADULT.

oh, and GP lessons are more interesting now; thanks to NIE's project, which is essentially the reason why i have the tablet pc. virtual reality has never been better. makes me miss playing SIMS...

HAHA..

cross country wednesday. embrace yourself mentally, physically,emotionally and silly-ly.

2007-01-21T01:05:00.000+08:00

2007-01-19T09:39:00.000+08:00

i think the only time i can blog is when im in school (making FULL MAXIMUM use of the tablet pc DUH)...ni pun curik-curik update.

HAHA.

catching up with chem and maths..still need to do some stuffs for physics..and I STILL NEED TO BLOODY SELL THE i@fun TICKETS...

and to sum1, thanks for letting me see reality, "reality kicks you in the butt".

"DIETING DOES MORE GOOD THAN HARM" - gp essay im currently typing.

2007-01-15T23:46:00.000+08:00

THIS POST IS ESPECIALLY DEDICATED TO SERI RAHAYU.

HAPPY EIGHTEENTH BIRTHDAY.

i can type out a whole bunch of mushy mushy things here but let's just save everyone the pain ok?

ahahaha..

neways seri, i love you too!!!!

2007-01-14T19:52:00.000+08:00

you'll get less and less updates frm me for about the whole of this month.

busy busy busy with s.o.c rehearsals..that's like 3x a week..on wednesdays, fridays fom 2.30-6.30 and saturdays frm 12-5.30..and yes, yes, i don't have a life. i'll be tooo exhausted to go out at night after that. ergh.

and the last week of the performance..every single day!!!!!

and since trainings are on wed and fri, we are allowed to stand down frm CCA for this whole month. and i'm absolutely grateful for that. i don't know how else i'm going to cope with school.

the downside of being an ogl is to miss the very first few lectures and it somehow affected the rest of the lectures on the same topic. so yeah, trying ~~hard~~ to catch up, and it doesn't help that 2mr, i have physics rev test frm 5.30-7pm, wed chem test during SPA period and thursday maths rev test after school, during mlep period. so i mite not be duin it on thursday. heh. that's like the only saving grace i have. and guess what? i have yet to start studying for ANY subject.

busy with other things too. heh.

oh, FINALLY MET UP WITH WANI yesterday evening to supposedly have "desert" but we went to banquet so the closest thing to desert we had was roti john..wahahahaha..THANKS FOR THE TREAT!!! i didn't want her to treat me ok, but she insisted so i relented. haha. and i hope you like the pouch. and no, your wallet's not gay. it's cool; esp the key thingy **winks!!

it's so nice to catch up again. and she promised me her power cheese and choc muffins the next time we meet. hahahahahaa...so i told her to meet me on monday. HAHA. i only wish i can bake you smth too, but it seems that my culinary skills have yet to even EXIST.

HAHA.

and after that went to seri's place to celeb her birthday. met the KL's after a super duper long time! geezz..they are still as irritatingly lovable as ever. heh. and SERI, i want my 500 piece puzzle! haha.

i'll dedicate a post to you on your birthday when the REAL day comes.

2007-01-08T22:38:00.000+08:00

wooooohhhh

ORIENTATION 2007 - OLYMPIA IS OOOVVEEERRRRR

i love my tribe - PROMETHEUS, which i and dearest partner in crime; jared pronounced promiscuous.

i love the jam and hop night. (winks winks)

i love my air conditioned classroom. heh.

I HATE NOT BEING ABLE TO RENT LOCKERS NOW!!!!

coz my bag is like heavy..eerrrggghhh..

oh, and i lost my pencil case, (yes, the gigantic one) on 2ND JANUARY..just like 1 DAY BEFORE SCHOOL REOPENS and i lost it IN SCHOOL. what the hell. coz the titans' ogls met on 2nd jan.

so i like went to buy a new pencil case..which is NICER..heh..white babe, colour of purity lah konon..and all the stationery..and then today, when i went to the office..DAPAT BALIK uh the pencil case.

i was ssooooo happy coz there's like a gazillion things inside sampai skin ckp "byk nah kazanah kau"..hahaha

oh, and the moment nash saw me today she was like "you're so tanned, im gonna die"..HAHA..

and i AM BLOOOOOODY PISSSSEEEDDD because my tablet sort of like resetted itself. i lost all my pix, music, DOCUMENTS ie. GP HOLIDAY ESSAY..i didnt save it in my thumbdrive and i have no back up copy. so NOW...what? i'm supposed to do another essay? no uh..dah penat2 buat on sunday nite..wth..ergh..now i regret not printing it as soon as i saved it.

still pissed.
ergh.

and i have PE on monday mornings and tuesday afternoons...WHAT THE HELL..hah...

oohh, and i took my FIRST 922 ride with ama yesterday. haha. only she knew how crazy i went over that bus. ahahahahahhahha..and morning broadcast today was GREAT!!!

2006-12-29T02:20:00.000+08:00

ok. hi people. im back.
been busy lately. finished painting my room and all but no pix YET..sabar eh korang..ahh..sabar.
damn damn damn busy.

and the weather's not helping!!!
just makes me wanna reach for that comforter and snuggle in bed and hug my pillow tightly and not get out!!!!!!
~sigh..life is not always about getting what you want, right?

i can vouch for that. like totally.

i know im supposed to do a reflection of this year. i seldom, no wait, NEVER do this, because i've had great years and enjoyed them all. but somehow, this year, everything's different. REALLY fuckingly different.

two-double-o-6 was one heck of a tumultous year for me. i've had as many ups and at the same time, the more number of downs. haha. or so i feel. whatever it is, it sure was one helluva roller-coaster ride, which i survived. (it's like what, 2 more days to 2007?)

first three months at IJC was obviously great, with my babes and all. all the cabut cabut ponteng ponteng crash crash. haha. fond memories. and YU-TANG, EUGENE, JUN LIN!!!! I MISS YOU LAH...

when i got my results, wooooh..damn happy but when i got my posting, wasn't too happy. all 4 of us lovelies in 4/9 were separated. it kinda makes me realise that i've never actually gotten my first choice sch before. haha. ccks was my LAST CHOICE and IJ's my 4th choice but i guess, there's more to just choice schools.

we scored a raw r5 of 10,11,11,12..and one went to sa, aj, ij and sp. pretty disappointed to not get my first choice school and TO BE ALONE. i mean, i do have new found friends in ij and they're awesome. you know who you are yeah?

but to not have people who've been there for you since you were only THIRTEEN makes school something you dread going to. IT'S JUST NOT THE SAME WITHOUT EACH AND EVERYONE OF THEM. and it doesn't help that i was the only malay person in my jae class. i also had a teacher i could not and will not ever respect and hey, the person's giving me hell in school.

i've always had the "high life" back in pri and sec school. so when you're like, finally in the minority, or at least that's how it seems, its hard. to not have people with the same frequency as you, to not have people you can share dirty, raunchy jokes or just some whacky stories during lessons makes it all the more hard for me. i finally knew how it felt to "not belong to the majority". but it didn't last long. it was only because i thought i could not adapt to them that made me distance myself from them. in actual fact, they were willing to embrace me. i was just outcasting myself. i had a paradigm and when i broke that paradigm, it was a tad too late. i was already so used to chilling with people from other classes that it somehow took a toll on my relationship with my own classmates. but glad evrything's better now. MUCH MUCH BETTER AND I LOVE 12B.

IJ's not wothout its ups too..if i were anywhere else, i won't get to know the people i've grown to love today..the whole bunch of s66 (read: syafiq,david,hanafie,my-sarah,cedric..) and some here and there..(read: adeel, wani,nazreen, filzah, fifi..) i wouldn't pick up hockey or be a dj for sure as hell i'd stick to my fine arts roots..i won't be in the s.o.c coz the school won't be new, i won't be involved in Awallah Dondang, gotten to know more peeps, esp JEFF NIZAL..aku miss korang jugak! and yes yes..gotten closer to ARIFF, SAK and SERI, you people make me want to go to school tau!!!..not forgetting FARAH, who's helped me during my i-don't-gel-with-my-classmates days... and i won't be given a chance to mentor some fuchun sec students.

if not for ij.,me and nash would probably be once-used-to-be close friends...nash, just taking this opportunity to tell you that though we may not always spend time together (at least not as much as you and ama!) but it's great knowing that we can just talk and talk and talk and TALK about everything under the sun.

now, NASH is special to me coz i've known her since like forever and though i do not know what's going on entirely in her life and vice-versa, there's always a bond between us that even time not spent can't break. ok, this is kinky but i love you nash! hahahahaha..

and AMA, you know we need each other to be the pesona that we are on air. there's just so many things that we can both do but without you, i think it won't be as great. you're the greatest partner i can ever ask for. and no, ni bukan bodek ok!

and of course, to darling deebz..im just so happy for you-know-what and there's like a million and one things i could actually thank you for but i think even words would not be sufficient. heh. dah dah. jgn grin besar besar.

all in all, 2006 is sure one year i would remember for all the tears and joy.

now, 2007, hit me!

and i just hope my body clock will be in tune for school. late nights and not-so-early mornings are what i've succumbed to.

2006-12-23T23:09:00.000+08:00

ok.

to those looking forward to a picture galore in this post, 'fraid u're not gonna get any.

i tried uploading the tonnes of pix (there were SIX CAMERAS - 4 hp with 2 megapixels each, my digi cam, my dad's nikon slr) to multiply but it kinda failed coz suppsoedly the pix were not in the required format. BULLSHIT i tell you. i'm 100% sure the pix were all in jpg format.

so, i'll try again soon kieS?

OOOHHH, and as a result of enjoying so much during the hols, the whole family fell sick on different days and i was no exception. heh. and while i'm typing this, i still don't feel too good. so might laze around at home first

oh noooo..i won't be lazing around at all!!!! ahah..im gonna repaint my bedroom!!! baru teringat..tsk tsk, you're only EIGHTEEN(in four months' time)..

gonna change from yellow banana to a dark fuschia pink..or DEEP PURPLE..my dad was like, orbit nah purple..hah. but it's MY room..woohhh..haha..

anyways..i am very very very happy for this guy friend of mine who's had a second shot at love. ahahaha..congrats boy!!! name shall not be mentioned with all due respect to that person's request to "spread maintain ah". haha.

oh, and speaking of love,
courtesy of mr secret agent

"love is friendship PLUS sex" a quote he got from BORDERS. hah hah

and in my next post, im gonna end with a final look on the year 2006 - a very antagonizingly special year for me and no, i don't believe in making new year resolutions.

and i'll try to put up pix of my newly painted room, if i would have already finished by then!

till then, merry x'mas folks.
and yes, im supposed to exchange x'mas gifts with some folks. remind me yeah.

2006-12-21T19:56:00.000+08:00

i'm back!!!

updates later ok.

much love,
mmmwwwwaaahhhhssss

2006-12-13T12:55:00.000+08:00

MISS ME PEOPLE!

i'll be vacationing in the much loved shopping paradise in jakarta. ahahahah..and i'll be off tonight. toodles~

and guess what? i've yet to pack my bag actually and momsie's already making noises. "pegi siapkan kau nye accessories sane..."

i don't knw hw much daddy dearest will give me to splurge. so, kalau mencukupi, i'll get the people a bunch of things ok.

the people refers to the KL's, the LOVELIES, wani, ama,nash,farah,siti and the list goes on. mmyyy gaaaawwwdddd.

and wani, i'll be looking forward to eating dessert with you after i come back! ahahahahaa..we'll cam-whore too ok!!!! bknnye senang nak jumpe ngn org tgh kerje ni..

oh, and know what?
my dad's soooo cruel lah..

he and his wife changed their 6610 phones to n70 and guess what? my two sickening-helluva-irritating-but-i-still-luv-you-guys brothers are using it!!!! what the hell. they're using 6233 currently, which is already a 3G phone, and do check out the previous post for the phone im using.

my dad's not using it coz he already has a TREO or TRIO..alaaa..i don't knw what it's called, i only know it's like hp's iPAQ which reminds me of david. ahaha.nehmind. tt story another time.

and my mom, well, she uses it only for the basics - talk so she's taking one of the 6233s.

and when i complained to my dad, die punye jahat..he said "you must learn how to live a difficult life". ape jek! hmph. then i complain and complain and complain. ahahahah. in the end, my dad gave me my bro's 6233, until my contract ends, which is around my birthday next year! wooohooo..

4 more months and a new phone baybeh!!!!

and JEFF and FAI

HAPPY ADVANCED BIRTHDAY!!!!

TILL THEN,

BYE BYE SINGAPORE! HELLO INDON!

2006-12-09T20:44:00.000+08:00

hO Ho ho.
merry x'mas.

tt's the spirit you can feel when you walk down orchard road. bah-

ohh...a lot of things to blog about. ahahahahahaha..pictures galore. have fun!!!

presenting to you, (drumroll please)
my first ever emo pic!!!

i never had an emo pic ok, because i can't morph myself into that kinda mood..ahahaha..happy go lucky what! i nearly burst out laughing for this one..

oh, and COP at ang mo kio polyclinic.

look at what's written on one of the posters!!!!!

in case you can't see, it reads "CERTAIN MEN ARE HARD TO RESIST"

and look what racial living has done to me and rochester.

iman intentionally wanted to spoil the pic, hence the extra bod behind rochester but too bad, i think ur attempt was a futile one!muahahahhaa..

and pic of that COP hour is definitely this.

thou shalt hold thou lips!

more pix at my multiply site. after that, met seri sak deebz, the ladies of the KL, to just chill coz seri wanted to..ahaha....again, pix are up at my multiply site.

then then then..yesterday, watched WAVES 11 - just to catch hid darling perform.

and i heart these ladies too!!!

love love love you all!!!

ok..people i met there

aie.berg.aj.man.khai.hafiz.syafiq.wani.nasrun.firdaus.yan ming.li yong.cai ning(ij dance instructor)...and much more..can't rmbr lah..and as im typing this, im chatting with hid, and listening how she got hitched. ahahaha..congrats babe, like finally!!!

hope you and him last long ok..and tunjuk aku gambar die! you promised!!!!!

oh..and aft that, we went to eat at al ameen and on the way, i saw this lady who wore the exact same shoe as deebz..albeit a different colour. it was in the bus and i desperately wanted to capture it.

attempt No. 1

attempt No. 2

attempt No. 3 - FINAL TRY

I DID IT!!! though i think it's kinda dark. deebz's pair is maroon whereas the other aldy's is cyanish blue.

oh, and ten reasons why i need a new phone?

the phone's usability has waaaaaayyy exceeded its capability such that the numbers and what nots on the keypad can no longer be seen (friction, no doubt)!!! i didn't realise how bad it was until i asked my 13yo brother to help me answer a call to which he said, "kak, nak tekan mane? " ie. where to press?

and that, in itself is suffice to make up ten bloody reasons!!!!

tomorrow, deebz huhney will be off to brisbane. rmbr uh what i kirim-ed you! may you sleep in-flight just like this!

ooooooooooooooooooooooooohh...
i found this in my email inbox dated november 22nd. ahahahah...i only read IMPORTANT emails mind you.

Chu Kang ( PCK ) explaining sex to Chu Beng's son, Aloysius ...

Aloy : Why is making love so enjoyable ?
PCK : Aiyah, ah boy, enjoyable becaws, same like when you dig your nose with your finger mah !

Aloy : Do you think women enjoy sex more than men?
PCK : Of course woman lah ! When you dig dig your nose, your nose feel better than your finger, right ?

Aloy : Why do women hate it when they get raped ?
PCK : Ai-yah ! Say, you walk along the load(road),den someone come over and dig your nose, you like or not ? Ehhh ? Don't pray pray ah

Aloy : Why is it a woman cannot have sex when she is having her menses?
PCK : Oy !! If your nose bleeding, you still go and dig meh?? Siow ah !Use your Blain(brain), use your blainnn ..........

Aloy : Why is it most men don't like wearing condoms when they are making love?
PCK : Ehhhh, when you dig your nose ah, you like to dig with a glove on your finger or not ? Not the same shiok feeling mah. Corlight(correct) or not?

Aloy : Why is making love carried out in private ?
PCK : Ah boyyyyy, use your blain, use your blainnnnn . you go and dig your nose in flont of your whole class izit ?? Stupid lah!!

Aloy : Wah ...... Uncle Chu Kang, you are very good.
PCK : Aiyah ...... best in Singapore and JB, and some say Batam also ah !!!

2006-12-02T22:21:00.000+08:00

I HEART HEART HEART online shopping!!!!

ooooh, and im taking a break from the comp by blogging, doesn't make sense i know, since im still technically, using the comp. having quite a bit of a headache from browsing thru endless online shops...and it all started with a halter bikini. hehs.

well..another week had passed quickly for me..trainings and stuff..

but highlights of the week is definitely these two events

1. NPCC BBQ & HOCKEY CAMP

heh..i can't bear to rank them coz i love both of them.

thank you to the 12th batch of ncos for inviting the 10th batch and the 11th batch as well..or should i thank the 11th batch instead? im rather confused actually. ..ahahaha..

food's good, company's good. i miss each and everyone of you!!!! mmmwwwaaahhhssss..and azizah my love, if you're reading this, do send me the pics ok. as long as got my face, i want. don't care nice or not. (all shud be nice right? **winks)

oooh..and seeing the sec 1s just tickle my heart. ahahahahaha...don't know why. they are just so - funny. period!

it's sucha a waste that only 3 girls turned up..delia nazilah n myself..but that turned out to be a good thing as the guys served us like princesses - i swear the closest thing i did to bbq-ing the food was just placing wen bin's uncooked salmon on the grille and -pooooff- i went off. (taking pix, like DUH)

then then then came the hockey camp!!!
tiring and all..but i just love the hockey girls and guys. i just wish that everyone would've come...and i chased the mcdelivery guy - wahahahaha..ssshhh..inside story between khairyn, afiq, ameerul and me! ahahaha

and i already miss sak n seri!!!

oh oh oh..and nizal..sorri eh...tak dpt tgk kau nye muzikarama..heh..

the whole of next week, im fully booked and hope hope hope i get the job w deebz huhney. interview's on monday!

2006-11-26T01:59:00.000+08:00

i checked into MLG and realised that i have 8 assignments due, of which 7, yes SEVEN, SEVEN is due 2359 h on 25/11/06.

and lo-and-behold..they are PHYSICS assignments..my god..i havent touched physics since mid-course papers and that was like..in OCTOBER!!! and this is near-end november oredi! ahahah..so yeah..crept up at home coz it's raining and kononnye easy uh to refer to lecture notes or what..

pui..refer ke ape..dah lupe main hentam kromo aje!! ahahah..

oh yes..today's post will feature SYAFIQ and DAVID!!!
(and a part of my bimboness)

ta-dah!! (pls click on image if you can't see it)

i present to you syafiq's masterpiece. the story goes like this. he had a lot of free time while, i on the other hand, had a lot of PHYSICS hmk..soo..did cha see the link? SMARTass!!

so i asked him to help me draw FBD of the man standing against the rough ground. and him, being DAMN PROUD OF HIS SOCCER SKILLS SHOWED ME HIS 3 TWO-ONES on the right hand side..oh, and "the x is aku", as spoken by mr syafiq himself...ahahaha...sempat seh selitkan his hebat skills when its supposed to be PHYSICS uh!!!

this is the original diagram btw, with some scribblings by me, of the man. looks how artistically it has transformed, in syafiq's hands no doubt!!!

and, rmbr, i told you, i'd have to share a bit of my bimbo-ness. you guys should be familiar with STREET FIGHTER right, when sega was all the rage..then remember, this guy clad in white with red head-band called RYU (pronounced as ree-yu; as said by david)..then david proudly claims tt he's ryu and he showed me this pic with the red-head band. and guess what?

your bimbo friend here thought the read head band was for real. i mean, from far, you can't really tell what (psst; tt's the only defence i have)

unless you look at it this close uh

right??

oh..this is prove that guys putting on make-up is common already!!!

and the result?

ahahahah...oh, but of course, he did it with good intentions..to please his friend who was migrating..ahaha..HE IS NOT A GIRL TRAPPED IN A MAN'S BODY, to those of you who have no sense of humour..and according to him..

šжξ ςζíƒƒ - Sleep at MRT station ist krieg says:
i kena rape sia
šжξ ςζíƒƒ - Sleep at MRT station ist krieg says:
my face

oh, and his nick..he was reffing to this uncle who slept like a log at EUNOS MRT station and guess what? the unker(uncle, in chinese slang), didn't even realise lah..tt his picture was taken!!! ahahaah...

here's a pic of david and syafiq, well, almost.

and folks, for your entertainent, entitled "back when i didn't knw what hairstyles and plucked eyebrows meant"

and the big event..ZoukOut '06. 9th Dec '06. 38 pre-sale. 48 at the door.
who's going???

oh, and this IS my first post using the tablet...hehehehe..out laytah..meeting the KL's..miss them a lot lot lot!!!!

2006-11-24T22:13:00.000+08:00

ok..

lack of posts? you bet; busy-ness.

i just counted and guess how many days in december im free? free as in without any activities at all?

9 days. NINE DAYS only..including saturdays and sundays mind you. and i bet it'll be lesser as i get more finalised dates for sum stuff.

makes me not regret my decision to stick to my subject combi somehow..where the hell am i supposed to find time to study a year's subject on a whole new level? tsk tsk.

and yes..chem students, we do have a test, 2nd week in term 1 on ALL j1 topics. bummer i know. and i have to stuggle to find time to revise..oh my god. not gonna make it. not not NOT gonna make it. not including GP homework, and also physics test..with maths mc calurin series tutorial..

im frantically waving my white flag already!!! grrrrr....

oh, and yes..finally got the tablet pc...woooohooo...

BE GREEN WITH ENVY..

oooh..i see it..hahakz..but trust me...nothing much to be envious about. let's see, just air-conditioned classrooms the whole year round, even tutorials, 24/7 internet connection..woohooooo...haha..

but the dwnside, we cant d/l pretty much stuff but thks to sweetest WANI, i now have msn msgr..ahahahah..i love you babe!!! thks uh!!!

WANI is so sweet..came all the way to rehill, to watch the hypernovas practise and to pass me those files. mmmwwwwaaaahhhhsss!!!!

and to HIDAYAH!!!

i did wish you happy birthday ok..on some previous entry..hmph..haha..in case you didn't see it, nah

HAPPY BELATED BIRTHDAY BABE!!!
yes, 8th dec, i'll be there!!!!

it's so nice to hear from you again, but quit playing games with my heart baby. it's been one and a half years already. i don't want to see it rain.

2006-11-20T22:21:00.000+08:00

i feel so detached right now.

i just found out a person who's always been close to my heart is going through a hard time and i had to find it out through his friend. to the friend, i know you won't be reading this but thanks for finally spilling it to me, of course, after much persuasion from my part.

you have been with me through thick and thin ever since i was young. we grew up together, had fun together, went thru' some hard times together yet you don't even want to tell me what you're going through. it is a bummer to be out of OCS while your mates carry on, coz of your condition and i think your girlfriend feels it too. kate orang, picit paha kanan, paha kiri pon terase..or something like that.

but whatever it is, hope your surgery will be going on fine and i just hope for the best for you.

you have my love of course, as a friend.

i miss you.

2006-11-19T19:32:00.000+08:00

Hi people!
sorry for the lack of posts; been super busy; more of super going out everyday!!! WHICH IS WHY i'm home on a SUNDAY NIGHT..like..what the hell?!?!?!
ok..here goes..how my week has been..

so warning. read at your own risk - loooooooooooooooong post!

[TUESDAY]

on tuesday, i had school in preparation for a big big event, which im not gonna tell you peeps yet. ahahaha..soon, perhaps, you'll find out all about it. it took up my entire afternoon!!! sheessshh..

[WEDNESDAY]

i WAS supposed to have hockey in the morning but i didn't go because...it has been 57329857943574308520 days since i last exercised and after the hockey session on monday morning, my things were aching like hell i tell you..i cringed everytime i see the stairs because each step i took was like morphine killing me..ahahahaha

and i thought that was the worst...wait till you hear about friday's training! But i was still in school, for compulsory chemistry lessons but it was soooo boring!!!! the attendance was already wwwaaaayyy below the supposed number..it started at 12.40 and was due to end at 2.40 but i left like..around 1.15?

i mean..this session is SUPPOSED to help me in chem since i got 39 for mid-course alone..but i was already turned off by what they teach and my brain switched off too..sooooo..i mean, c'mon..would you stay at the LT for 2hrs when you're not gonna gain anything? PRAGMATISM people, pragmatism!

so yes.. I LEFT..

and watched STEP UP

i think it's just plain nice..the usual girl with some social class with the guy being a backstreet..as cliche as it gets, with the fusion of street and classical dance. so yeah. but it was nice. PLAIN nice.

[THURSDAY]

this is THE day...

first of all, i wasted like 2 hours to just go back to school. know for what? for returning the bloody lock for my locker. heh. yes. and since im not an early-riser, i went in the afternoon. and yes...even though it's the rainy season now, it was definitely an exception on that day!!!

FRIIGGGIIINNNN hot hot hot...

then went to town to celebrate J's and hiddy's birthday and yes girl..i will be watching you on the 8th of DEC..

oh and now..for the interesting part..

MESYUARAT AGUNG....which started around seven plus pm..let me tell you something. despite a very serious issue, none of us can actually be THAT serious. funnnnnyyy.

we were indeed talking about a VERY SERIOUS ISSUE but the whole "meeting" wasn't just peppered with laughters..it was more like, for every 10 seconds a person speaks, somebody would be bursting out laughing..dengan telatah masing2 bile dah geram dan kecewe dan pasrah!!!! i wished i had video-d the mesyuarat. it beats pesta perut.

[FRIDAY]

woooh..i went for hockey training, thinking that you know, since my things are not that painful anymore but guess what?

that friday was FITNESS TRAINING!!! and this is the day where i declare that i have the weakest stamina for the hockey girls. in terms of STAMINA only ok..i can sprint you know you know you know.

ahahaha..ok lah, actually..i already know that i don't have stamina since my lower sec days but i refused to do anything about it. because..you know..i didn't know i would be involved in hockey later on.

and we ran 3 rounds around the teletubby hill and thks girls and guys for the motivation for the near last round..haha..macam nak pengsan aku..

then we did circuit training round the school track..like..for another 3 rounds? yes yes..then had 60m sprints 6 times..

I AM NOT KIDDING!!!!!

so yes..my WHOLE BODY IS ACHING..
can laugh uh all you want...but this is cardiovascular training..my heart would be healthier than yours i bet!!! wahahahahahahaa...

[SATURDAY]

ok..watched MELAYU.COM.SG

to me, it was interesting at first but i got bored of the monologues. the ENTIRE show was based on monologues other than like..2 small parts whereby the characters interacted with each other. i kind of expected more from it, like SERI but i guess it was ok.

it was like..a very angsty show - other than one character who's happy-go-lucky..so yalah..
went to lau-pa-sat to eat after that...

and yes..
this day was the day i brought a camera but didn't even take a SINGLE PICTURE..believe it people, belive it!

for once, i am not a cam-whore. yes..everyday go "wow"!

and syafiq..thanks for being an angel!!! i would have reached home later if not for you sweets!!!

"ooh baby, you look so fine"
270 bucks you will cost me. oh, wait. 189 bucks. please lower it to 160 bucks. or 150 bucks.

and daddy, please give me 200bucks. be KIND.

=)

2006-11-13T23:08:00.000+08:00

got the hang of things now. wow..

never ever under-estimate the power of ONE person.
that ONE person can affect your life, your friends' lives..

just come to think of it. imagine you are a bus-driver. and im sure bus drivers have their own schedules. but if the one that always drives the morning bus is late, then man, you're in bubbling hot soup. possibly thousands of commuters are fretting, tapping their feet, occasionally glancing at the watch and wonder to themselves why the bus is late today. BECAUSE these people have WORK or SCHOOL and they have to be there ON TIME.

just because you think that the world centralizes on you, you disregard these people's needs.

isn't a power of one man so great?

you destroyed what took months to build, trusts shared, hopes harboured, the warmth between us all.

most importantly, you killed you.

2006-11-10T23:55:00.000+08:00

woohooo..

jalan raya
jalan raya
and

MORE JALAN RAYA!!!

ok..i've been going out everyday and coming back late since..since..since..ok..i can't remember since when..since forever i think! heh..

and yes..of course it's tiring but hey..whenever you're with your friends, the night is ALWAYS young! But, i think it took a toll on me today..when i was out with my former classmates! ahahah..dalam bus jek tidur seh!

and i had this bangsawan workshop..more like crash course this morning.
and it finally dawned on me why, oh why, i am not into MALAY DANCE!!! ahahaha...it's all so lembut-ty and stuff..haha..i bet you'd never catch me in those extravagant costumes dancing to sleepy music. hehe..no offence to all malay dancers!

oh..it was gerek because we FINALLY got to see the MAN in DINIE when he acted, ok..more like, silat-ed the RAJA..ahaha..funny i tell you..sak took a vid of it..will gif ya the links soon..if she uploads it on youtube.

and yes..will upload raya pix from shafinaz and fairuz and erm..AFIQ for the combined hockey and floorball raya outing the other day.

ooooohh...and i soooo need a monthly planner URGENTLY for this month and the next one. i have soooo many, really really many many activities going on that im starting to NOT remember them off-hand or..i remember a date and just KNOW intuitively that i have something on on that day or i'd remember the event but not the date and yes..

i wouldn't wanna miss anything so right now, looking for a monthly planner with cartoons on it! ahaha..yes..i'm THAT lazy to use the columns and rows and what-nots in excel or word to construct one myself. tsk tsk.

oh..and hockey trainings will resume next week. Every odd days of the week, from 7.30am to 10. i HOPE i can wake up! that will be my biggest problem!

i remembered when they had the pw op talk the other time during the sept hols i think. It ended at 11 but i JUST WOKE UP at noon...hahahahahahha

oh oh oh..and just now, on the way home..with jannah in the taxi..adelah pak cik tu cakap kalau nak carik suami, carik yang beragama. ahaha..ok..not a laughing matter but me and jannah least expect that and it WAS such a ride i tell you.

oh well..just doing his job i suppose.
reminds me of sak's dad somehow!

2006-11-07T00:11:00.000+08:00

pee-UU is over and done with!!!!!

OP done!!!

DONE

DDDOOOONNNNEEE !!!!!!

it's ooooooovvvvvvvvvvveeeeeeeerrrrrrrr!!!!!

gah.
im just so happy that the fucking project is completed..oops..i seem to overlook the I & R..oh well..that'll be done in a jiffy! ahahhaaaa

to hell with ENTRY PROOFS
to hell with ST's
to hell with PEE-UU time slots..
to hell with all the time p-uu has taken up!!

ahaha..im kidding.
i think im gonna miss the process but trust me, even if you pay me a million bucks, i won't do it again! Not EVER!!!!

2006-11-05T12:52:00.000+08:00

wooohooo...

pixy post..

im lazy to write and since a picture speak a thousand words, come on pix..speak for me!!!

RAYA TRIP TO CG TETTY'S W nearly half the H1 students..kecoh nak mampos..
enjoy

ok..for more pix..do go to my multiply..top left hand...yes..sumwhere there..

then then then yesterday..went to vivo...no planning..at least for me..heh..impromtu!!!! went with NIZAL DEEBZ SERI SAK..

zee, nizal; featuring ben & jerry's cone

sak, seri; featuring princess hour's peace thingy..entah lah..bukannye aku tgk bende2 korea ni..heh..

zee, deebz; featuring long john silver's cheeeesy potatoes..

and tomorrow's my Oral Presentation. For non-jc students, it's oral PRESENTATION...not oral EXAMINATION..heh..hope i won't fumble mumble tumble tomorrow..wish me BEST OF LUCK..

oh..and at the rate im spending my money, i think i need to get a JOB like pronto!!!!
heh...seriously..NIZAL please please please..got vacancy!!!!!!!
cross my fingers!!!

2006-11-01T14:28:00.000+08:00

I MISS THEM!!!!!
like many many many uh...together with the other j2s i know that are not in the pix..
people like wani, nazreen, jiaqi and the list goes on...

since tomorrow's their GP paper, wish you guys best of luck!!!!
and let's hang out after your papers!!!

oh..this pic was taken, i think either during aces day or teachers day..ahahaha..and when the j2s and the j1s combine, i will always terselit at s66..haha..but even my CT don't mind coz s66 was his former class..tsk tsk..how simple can things get..im gonna miss alll of them, except ariff since i will be seeing him..i hope, next year..we can only know this friday..dammmnnn..

and speaking of ariff..ahahaha..
i left my WET STINKY PE SHIRT with my towel and sum other stuffs in his locker..ahahaha..im soooooo sorrriiiieee...i totally forgot to take it back yesterday..but trust me, i was only exaggerating when i say its wet and stinky.

(yeah rite, i was playing hockey before i changed. now everybody go, "eeeeeeeeewwwwwwww")

i'll take it back..perhaps..ermm..only friday? ahahahaah...

and yesterday should be labelled as my bimbo day and you are definitely mistaken if you think that everyday IS my bimbo day ok!!! hmph..

had dinner with the KL's..terbahak bahak ketawe..and we finally finalised some stupid stuff..tsk tsk..haha

oh, friday's my MALAY paper...ggggrrrr..
this IS the first time i'm scared for a language paper.
and of all languages, MALAY.
like, what the hell????!!!!!

somebody, set me straight
oh yes..and to dearest seri..

i DID hesitate when i put hair job since you people will associate it with blow job but erm, with the benefit of the doubt, i wrote that..boy..was i right!
tsk tsk.

and NNNNNNNOOOOO..
i did not influence u eh cik kak oii..to fly fly to dubai..
hahahaha..i love you babe!!!

2006-10-31T00:23:00.000+08:00

im tired. im tired. im tired. im tired.im tired.
im sleepy like fuck today..

if i had a choice, i would have fallen asleep a loooong time ago..but not wanting to let some people down, im gonna soldier on..

cccceeeyyyy..

but a lot of things goin thru my mind..
i can't even hear those wind chimes...

anyway people, my hair is dyed again..hahahahahahaha...i have a thing for breaking school rules somehow. make that ANY rules..oh well. -shrugs-
BUT..this time the shade is not as striking as the first time i did it..
heh..
but it's still darn obvious.

from copper golden brown (GARNIER) to light golden brown (REVLON) and though some peeps say the Revlon conditioner smells good..hmm..for me..it smells like some indian oil..ahahaha..SOMEHOW lah..it just smells like that..entah..

OOOOOOOOOPPPPPPPPSSSSSS!!!!!!!
i don't mean to marginalise anybody..sorry eh..selamat hari raye..maaf zahir batin.. (",)

i mean, why bother to dye if the colour's subtle? mite as well just hang under the sun and you mite get that shade. and it's FREE. not a single cent outta your pocket.

do things so that they'll be obvious.

and yes, thks DEEBZ honey, for the second hair job. i should hire you as my personal hair dye-er or something. and yes. about the GOOOOOOODDDD KKKIIIISSSEEERRR part...heh...funny uh...damn funny..

still thinking if i should hit the clubs next week...hmmmmssss..

hockey at 7am later.
hope i can WAKE UP.

as you can see, or as you mite have known, this IS a random post.
period.

2006-10-27T10:14:00.000+08:00

Selamat Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir & Batin

kepada semua yang menyayangi aku dan sebaliknya..ahahaha..kk..merepek..

anyway, to all muslims out there, selamat berkolek-sion...lebih lebih tu sudilah kasih budak kat sini..ahahaa..

and yes, my former primary / sec / kindergaretn and ape2 lagi yang sewaktu dgnnye, nak jalan raye please please please tell me early2 so i can free up my days SPECIALLY for you peeps!

love you all!
mmmuuaaaccksss..

oh yes

i know im supposed to ct'nue posting pix but i think i'll only show you ONE..

this is like my favourite shot of all..with the KL's when we went out the other day.

Clockwise from left : .sak.deebz.haiqal.nizal.ariff.zee.

for more pix, kindly proceed to nizal's fotopages..

2006-10-23T11:55:00.000+08:00

SUNDAY

i made my maiden trip to GEYLANG for this raye season yesterday! ahahaha..tu pon with the KL's jugak.

but in the end, the only things we bought there were FOOD for buke-puase and some rasta stuff..

enjoy the pix =)
hover for captions...

Let us show you our deprieved childhood(s)

after that went to town where i tried and tried A LOT of shoes and terserempak with CIKGU ZAIDAH!

followed by POOL-ing kat JE sebelah matmat rep yang bertattoo-tattoo dan bergelek-gelek seperti kite ni berade di kelab dangdut sehhh..kite main punye main sampai lah kite semue miss last train. tsk tsk.

walaupun kite due tak pandai main, tetap berposing dgn cue.

oh, and more groupy pix!

ok...i'll continue later since bloody blogger is giving me probs..

2006-10-22T02:29:00.000+08:00

changed layout.

loads of things happened today. im still up, at this ungodly hour.

great day actually, if it wasn't for you. guess tt's why im up at this ungodly hour.

upset.

but i still love you guys.

2006-10-18T09:07:00.000+08:00

i hate thinking of titles for blog entries.
simply beause whatever i write later will be of no relation whatsoever with the title. like, i thought of a title, intending to write about that but i end up writing about somethig else..like they say, always go with the flow kinda thing? so ya...i'll flow AWAY from what i intend to write. i always realise that i have the tendency to write something else, despite having in mind what to write. soo like, what's the point of having a title right?

Just like guys ; say one thing but actually feels another..ahahahah..i feel like a sexist...

ok.."that is so random" which is so overrated now. and that is itself overrated, saying that somethig else is overrated. get me?

anyway, to one of my dearest friend, whose name i shall not mention, even though you don't really tell me what happened but hey, i think i kinda know and my advice to you babe, ditch physical guys. they may give you satisfaction but is that the desired outcome of that relatioship? to want a person just so you are satisfied? errmm..that don't sound exactly right...ok..that makes you sound selfish but that is not the case, im sure.

or rather, to want a person just so you feel wanted when he gets physical with you? he may do that with other girls, who were or will be his victims, but trust me babe, you wouldn't want to go there. you're not gonna be one of his dolls. you're not gonna be like one of them whom he can easily get on the streets. you're gonna be you. and if's attacking your self-worth, he's not worth it.

if you can't let go of him, think of all the girls he let go despite them getting physical with him. so, is it worth it? food for thought babe, food for thought.

i love you, so do all your other friends. you don't really need that kind of love. it'll lead you nowhere.

and to dearest DEEBZ,
hold on k..at least till things are finalised. i know we're trained to expect the worst but sometimes, being an optimistic person does not really hurt. - huuggggss -

so much for blogging. looks as if i should turn my blog into some free advice service kinda thing..ahaha...

and the haze is getting worse again.

i can't help it..i still don't have that courage to start things over...

2006-10-16T22:49:00.000+08:00

if you think every goddamn thing i do is always wrong, damn it..just don't ask me to do anything can?

and why is it always me? why not them?

fucker.

are you blind or something?
just because im the most prominent one does not exclude them from whatever things you made compulsory for me. just because im not like them does not mean you have to turn me into one of them. for turning into them turns me into you, but i don't want to turn into you.

because i hate you

aftermath

2006-10-15T15:10:00.000+08:00

some smile, some cry
some wonder if they ever did try
the end of the road we've reached
the junction to which it'll leads

that aside, i miss the lovelies..we shall all go buke puase on tuesday ok? after my hockey training..

oh..this is random but for the guys out there,
love her with your heart, not with your brain.....or your dick.

open house yesterday was sucha mendak-ky affair. but hockey was the best, as usual, with loud music blasting through the stereo. the only one at the grand stand with music, perhaps.

and yes, i know, but still...i am somewhat not convinced. and i hate that, knowing that you really do.

wants not granted

2006-10-07T23:43:00.000+08:00

why does every damn person i know has a lappy?

ergh.
im gonna be a child and ask for one! ahahaha..if i get promoted, i'll get my dad to get me one. heh. IF i get promoted..if not, well, i shall still insist on it.

and oh oh oh..am sssooooo gonna miss the j2s..next week is their last week!!! No more selenger-ness from them! ahahha..miss them loads..they know who they are uh..haha..

ok ok..before i forget, i would like to express my gratitude and heartfelt thanks to the following people / things who / which have helped me in one way or another during the examination period. In random order, they are

1. myself - for working my ass off..
2. david - physics and maths and GP
3. syafiq - physics
4. adeel - chemistry
5. nazreen - chemistry
6. jeff, haiqal, ariff, david - for being my human alarm clocks in the wee hours
7. farah, siti - the times we studied together
8. sak, seri, ariff, nizal, haiqal, jeff - studying cum chilling sessions
9. deebz - our endless chatters during studying
10. coffebean / starbucks / mcD's - we are a noisy bunch of people. the library won't do for us so we resorted to these places.
11. my jackets - keeping me warm in these places
12. my ipod - for making me concentrate
13. my HUGE pencil case filled with highlighters / crayons - making my notes come to life. (im easily attracted to visually attractive things~~/people~~)
14. of course, who can deny the teachers' guidance?
15. God for allowing my brain to think and function properly
16. to all those who gave me the encouragement / motivation to soldier on
17. onwards - to all others / things whom /which i forget. =) even if i forgot you, at least i STILL
acknowledge ok!

damn written report. METHODOLGYYYYYYY.
Oh, and i want to dye my hair again, different colour of course. any suggestions?

Secret Recipe

2006-10-07T06:16:00.000+08:00

Been eating out quite a lot lately..ahahaha..like SAKURA'S, McD's, KFC, SAK'S PLACE..i can like actually count the no. of times i broke fast at home..luckily mummy didnt mind. heh.

And and and, yesterday..we gila gila people met up again.
The usual gang, without jeff. Berbuke puase di SECRET RECIPE kat marina square!!!!!

Sungguh tak senonoh..
We learnt that sum1's favourtie part is kat tengah, BAWAH pulak tuuuu!
ahakz..ish ish ish..puase2 pon...pemikiran..
sungguh tak senonoh. ok.that is for ME and me solely.
"kiteorang baru sampai changi airport, zee dah sampai britain"..haha..latest processor perr..kau kene lah paham2 sikit..

lepas buke, seperti biase, kite berlepak-lepak di esplanade..and and and, DEEBZ was hell-bent on playing with lanterns, just because that place was peppered with big, boring red-red lanterns in lieu of the mooncake festival..

"aku tak pernah seh main lantern"
kesian..beh kite carik lantern tak dapat..in the end, kite semue main BUNGA API beb!!! cam loooossstt childhood gitu..dah lah kite menunjukkan keghairahan kite untuk beraye di depan orang ramai walaupun belum lagik habis 2 minggu berpuase pon...ni lah budak-budak..

oh yuh..adelah minah2 tudung ni..
pakai seluar tappered, ketat nak mampos..i think us girls' pakaian lagik sopan seh..heh..but seriously, it's such an eyesore to think that these people actualy wear tudung but don't really know what it takes for one to wear the tudung..im not saying that i DO know what it takes but like hello..kalau kau nak pakai tudung pun, jagalah pakaian sikit..kalau nak jadi minah, jadi ajelah..jgn nak step ber-tudung-tudung ni semue...Minah with tudung ape, one step closer to god than minah2 tak bertudung? oh puhh--leeeaaassseee..REALITY CHECK, sum1? sungguh memalukan.

tsk tsk
bulan puase aku kutuk orang eh..dahsyat!
but memang betul ape, kenyataan! sounds familiar anyone?

and i know you might not be reading this.
but i just have to say it out.
didn't mean no harm yesty nite.
i know i was rude to you.
i just felt like being rude in your face.
sorry.

not very soon

2006-10-05T21:30:00.000+08:00

exams are over.
finally.
i shall not touch my books any longer. other than to put them far far away, think unused CUPBOARD.

oh my god..im watching the news and and and..there's SUBTITLES!!!!
ok..this is interesting because it's been sucha long time since i watched ANYTHING on television. I don't know when this actually started.
I also realised that the newscaster speaks SLOWER. oh the no no no no..even the interviews have SUBTITLES!! WHAT'S UPPPP???!!!

"there is a need to address the language proficiency level.."

ok..sungguh menghairankan.I didn't know that this is such a serious thing. To everybody out there, let us embrace the language with open arms, open minds and open...? nvm.

i just hope all of us will get promoted.
and to DEEBZ darling,
-huggs huggs kisses-
!!!

EXPOSED

2006-09-27T00:49:00.000+08:00

today, bam and me were exposed!!!!

maklumlah kite due ni kan, plus skeeeeennn tak puase..soo..kite adelah curik2 makan dekat tempat2 yang tertentu..

abestu kan...
adelah this grp of chinese j2s walking pass...satu2 kalam kabut seh hide makanan..ahahahaha...beh tak pasal2 bam berdiri..terperanjat jugak seh kite..cam nak sambut kedatangan diorang yang mengganggu pemakanan kite..ahahah..den i was like, sitting down crossed legged cam tak bersalah gituuu..dengan muke selmabe..

tapikan satu2 muke GUILTY seh..macam kite isap rokok gitu..nasib baik takde straw, aluminium foil..lighter..hahah..isap dadah babe..dah lah kite nye spot quite tersorok!

tapikan, beloved skeen ckp..diorang confirm ingatkan kite due MEMOTEK kau..hahahahhaa..walaupun kite due ni pompuan tapi, skola kesayangan kite kan ade org2 yang tak se-ter-rit!

and yeahs..it's like 1250am so i guess..my "exposed" episode happened yesterday..and off to mugging for nowwwwwww..

Note to SELF:
The word MUG or anything associated w it, will no longer exist in my dictionary as of next thursday, 5/10/06..

mind

2006-09-25T00:06:00.000+08:00

random title actually.

having helluva time w my EoM..thinking twice of changing source, coz i feel that it's not exactly STRONG? but then again, the thought of re-evaluating the author's credentials and all that shit made me cross out the probability of working on another source. hehs. just pollishing up my draft one..

ouh..and special thanks to ariff for waking me up at 3am, which didn't exactly help much lah..since i slept back..till jeff gave me another wake up call at 3.30am..which didn't help much too..coz i was talking w him alllll the way until erm..4+++...until he sahur lah, since kite cuti hari ni..haha..oh..didnt help coz i was supp to be STUDYING tapi zee kan ambititous..tidur kol 12, kol 3 lebih bgn leh blaja peeeee...kepala tak pusing2 mcm planet2 tak sah..hahahhaaa...

looks like i'll be sleeping late agaiinn..

my god..promos are like screwing up my life uh..

dah start puase

2006-09-23T21:55:00.000+08:00

allriiittteee people..im back..because a DEAD blog is a damn big NO NO NO NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO for me..so wooooo..yeah..

hahahaa..ok ok..first of all..im glad that everything's settled between the two parties..i love you people, babes or girls!! you know who you are!

AMA!!!! can't wait for us to go gila-gila during our show..hope that will come SOOONN..

and and and...SERI AND SAK!! love you tooooo..
read seri's blog and oh my god, please..don't call me kak zana..makes me sound like a girl who's sooo lembut and girly and ape2 yang sewaktu dgnnye, tho' seri thinks 'zana' sounds like a minah's name..

oh and yes, sak's friend's friend, whose name i do not know, is uber CUTE and im not the only one who thinks so, so yeah..credibility high ok!

been studying with DEEBZ, SERI, SAK, ARIFF and maaaann..i hope all of us can make it together next year ~~though i still think i might not be able to make it~~ . being an optimist .

oh..sak's called skin now, thks to deebz, who's called kak bedebah by ariff who's called lalat by seri who's called seri-lemak by sak. heh. me..weeelll..

im NOT rokiah to sak's friend!!! im NOT zeegala to ARIFF!!! and i'm not kak zaana to SERI!!! im ZEE!

oooh..and im daaammmnn blessed to have uber sweet friends...

thanks farah for your skirt. I resorted to borrowing her skirt because i was caught for short skirt but i didn't bloody alter it and im not gonna buy a skirt tt's one size bigger just so the skirt is 3 fingers above the MIDDLE OF THE KNEE!!! what the bloody fuck is wrong with ahem ahem? SAJC can like, have 4 or is it 5 fingers above the KNEE..why can't we? oh well..

and thanks sweetie for offering to fast w me for support lah konon tho u're not a MUSLIM but hey, it's not the first time im fasting uh! hahahaa..

and to ariff..for introducing me the cavana cheeseballs tho' i doubt i'll buy it again..

and to sak for bringing lontong goreng yesterday tho' it wasn't meant for me..tapi kitekan..jemput sendiri nye orang..hahaha..oh yeah..and for ur sastera notes!!! haha..

and to seri, for making me come down cck to study uh! haha..i think if i'd stayed home..i would have slept on!

and to everybody else for reading this entry of mine which has no direction set actually! ahahahaa..

ooooh ohhh ohhh..

AND to all the muslims out there, happy fasting!

cao cin cao..gotta mug..

KENANGANKU

2006-09-14T21:53:00.000+08:00

as copyrighted by hernando, today is my kenangan day.

i heard from an ex bf, whom i mite be mtg for lunch 2mr after not mtg him for...hmm...2-3 yrs plus? haahaahaa..its sooo sudden lah..thousands of qns swarming around..

haha..then, because i met deebz, yeah..i can't get enough of her..today was the FIRST day after 3 days of NOT meeting her..yes..we love each other THAT much..ooh..we met up after school and had dinner at some place, and and and..guess what? i saw another one of my ex-bf..

story not over yet..
on the way home..met HARVIN KAUR..oh my gooooddd..she's in NUS now..formerly from my secondary school and PRIMARY school..then we talked about the old days..then then then..met hidayah..haha..this one SMU student..but from my primary school tooooo..ok ok..im just shocked by the fact that i keep bumping into people who were once a part of my life all at the same day..whaddaya call that? COINCIDENCE? hmmm..i have my doubts..

oh yeah..and this is specially dedicated to SITI.
rmbr what i told you girl?
ultimately, the choice is yours.
You can choose to let them hurt you, but you can also choose not to let them hurt you. Triumph is yours, only if you choose wisely and i think you do.

your friends love you.
you know that.
huggs!

think

2006-09-12T22:59:00.000+08:00

allrite..continuing from my last post, Spore drawed against China..im not gonna comment..haha..it's only that..scary mary uh..see old men watch soccer...there's this guy who kept on saying "damn you bastard!" and erm "kayurism", to which deebz's bro said..asal tak kayurisme? melayukan lah..pix, click here

see the angst in them and you forget how old they REALLY are..

ooouh yeahs..and when paul twohill got busted..i was having a mini-fight with iman..
just look at his nick : BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL!

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
ape bye twoHill
idola aku tau
walaupun aku tidak mem-vote-kannye

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
ahaha.
i've been waiting for this day ever since SI started.
i'm SO gonna be basking in today.
nyahaha.

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
eh..ape seh
why why why
jealous eh
lots of girls like him
nyehaha

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
PLEASE.

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
then then then

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
i KNOW i look better.

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
oh please

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
compare My face to HIS.
please.
i win hands down.
nyahahaha.

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
hmph
how can u be soo happy
my gawd

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
happy lah.
i'm basking in ALL the GREAT talents in S'pore's GLORY!

δˉж♣◊► FάГzåâÑą [ ♫] zΞε ◄◊♣жδ Paaaaauuuullllll !!!!! says:
excuse me
u think he has no talent
he sang here without you
tt was hot

BAEK AH! BYE TWOHILL! says:
hot?
please.
my lighter generates more heat cannnn.

yes. All my friends have one thing in common - they do not seem to lack in self confidence! ~~That is as apparent as me going to get retained!~~

oh..and one of my friend's daddy passed away. Somehow, it made me think of him. I so miss him. And i pity my aunt.

And my friend's mummy.
And i was like,

which one is more painful?

A mother losing one of her kids or a wife losing her husband?

I mean, obviously both is bad. And some of my friends think that the mother would be in more pain since she has carried it around with her 24/7 for like 9 months only to see it die right in front of her. But what about the wife, who is sooo used to the campanion of the husband? And if the couple has children, wouldn't looking at them remind her of her soul mate ?

And he and me are of the same age, and everytime i see my aunt, i'll be wondering if she's thinking how or what her son could be doing when she sees me. Especially since we were close. But i daren't ask her. Scared lah. Don't know why though.

oh...and me n sak survived fasting today! maklumlah, kite hutang banyak kan..

oh NO

2006-09-06T16:23:00.000+08:00

just when i thought i wouldn't meet deebz again, boy, was i wrong!

yes yes!

meeting her for like, the umpteenth time!
to catch SINGAPORE VS CHINA!

LOVEWRECKED and stuffs

2006-09-05T23:03:00.000+08:00

Yerp..went out with the lovelies minus hidayah this time. oh hid, happy birthday to your granny, or was it granpy ?
either one lah uh..

ok..LOVEWRECKED!

it's sort of ok..but it's like, a little draggy in the middle..especially when amanda baynes fight with this, eva longoria look-a-like, but of course, a "worse" version.

yerp..this is her..

ooooouuuhhh..and this guy iss soooo freakingly hot..

don't look at amanda laaaa..the focus is on the GUY, and i didnt want to be an idiot to split up the image..so yeahs..
ALL four girls drooooooooooollllleeeedddd at him..haha..i wouldn't mind havin sucha HAWT boify..beach oh beach. here we come..and nashe, let me join you in your obsession with hot bods!

woooohhh...and the ending is sweeeeeeettttt!

and yes..
I was supposed to go to the 7TEEN party with deebz at zouk even though i think it's dumb because the dress code was PUNK rock..can you believe it? all the poseurs would be there. But, to hell with dress codes..we're there to partaaayy babeh! but but BUT..when i reached home, the mother was already making noise, so i decided to NOT agitate her further and stayed home..

GOOOD girl kan?
i wish!

ooohh..and of course by now eveyone knows that steve irwin died and im sure the majority of us placed turtles in front/behind our msn nicks though he's a croc hunter..not a turtle hunter..oooh..i think it's because of the PLACE at which he died..

but but but..my dearest fren KHAI..was agitated..
haha..

This is what his MSN nick reads :
WHAT'S UP WITH ALL THESE MTF TURTLE IN PEOPLE'S NICK? IF DATUK K DIE, WILL THEY PUT (dick) IN THEIR NICK? CB

i seriously think this is soooo cute..haha..
he's a non-conformist i must say..which is good rite?

picture post

2006-09-04T00:11:00.000+08:00

yes..all the pictures for your viewing pleasure. but wait! i still need to talk first!

what did i do today?
met DEEEEEBBBZ..again
yes yes yes
been meeting her for like every day lah..i just realised that we meet up with each other like freaking A LOT during the holidays..rememer deebz..june holidays? hahahahaha..oooh..

i am in pain when deebz kisses me!
nothing happened uh!

ouh yeah..and today is my "duduk diam diam kat rumah" day, obviously declared by my oh, so loving parents otherwise i could have dropped by AZIZAH's birthday party. so soorriiee sweeetsss. anyways, happy 7TEEN azizah.

oh and the other day, i was feeling vain.

ok. i am VAIN like 24/7 but shut up!

JAMMING SESSION

ape seh diorang tgk2 tu ?

where we were..
NURADEE bro studios, or something like that.
For those of you who have not been there, let me show you what's inside..ceyy..mane nye travel magazine jek..silap2 kene saman nanti!

newspaper articles featuring them. like DUH.

the SMARVO speakers.

the guitar / bass /lead rack.

these sponges absorp sound. I forget what it's called though. Sound absorping sponges? (emma havin a bimbo moment!)

the drums feat jad!

ok..im lazy to put captions..as and when i feel like it, i will lah..ok..have fun people!

do you realise that the mike is not on the stand?

presenting syamil, on guitar..skill uh this guy..jealous kiter!

them

kesian jad, jadi song lyric stand!

posters dulu-dulu seh

them again

ok..i find this lamp sooo nice..can u see the bulb is like, actually twisted..nice kan?

and the band, on the day of their performance, which is saturday..at kgms..at some hotel..i heard it went well..kudos!

ok..more pix for jamming click here

ooh..after jam..singgah SGH, tgk DD..
then went BUGIS..

then then then..kite cam lost childhood gitu, amin chi ko pak kat tgh2 bugis..just look at the smiles on our faces! cam happiness gitu!

you can like go to DEEBZ'S new webby for more pix..which is www.tralaalaa.blogspot.com yes..if you think that's bimbotic, i soo totally agree with you..but that's DEEBZ for you..ahahaha..i still love you babe!

and at least mine is still jomkiter-talktalk!

miserable

2006-09-03T00:09:00.000+08:00

i am soo happy that my i/c is found because apparently, one good ol' samaritan returned it to the ICA and i received a letter from them asking me to collect it. See, who says procrastination doesn't bring you benefits? If i had kanchiong-ly make another i/c pronto, there goes my hundred bucks..but BUT BUT..i get a new picture! ergh!

anyway, what i don't get is..
whatever happened to my ez link card?
yes yes yes, i miss using that blue card which reads secondary/ errr..ok i forgot what the other one is. now im using the..oopss..i can't tell you! heh.

i mean if the person found my i/c, there is erm a ~~slight~~ probability of him finding my ez link too rite? unless of course the fucker took everything else and just chuck my i/c somewhere and yes, i know, there can be like 8552493247394865 explanations for this but really..

whatever happened to compassion? or humanity?
for all you know, this girl mite be crying because her ez link card has like train concession and value of erm..well, i can't remember how much but STILL..there's value!!!! and how the hell do you think i can go around w/o my i/c nor my ez link?

whatever powers that are bestowed upon me shall i use it to haunt and torment the fucker and wish that the fucker who stole my wallet and/or uses my ez link for whatever reasons die a horrific death, probably with sunken eyes and crippled legs and hollow cheeks and ape2 lagi yang sewaktu dengannya. I also hope that for retribution, you will lose something that is of value to you. It may not only come in the form of materialistic wants and needs but maybe, emotional needs?

heh. that was good. I feel soo much better.
let me clarify, i am NOT a SADDIST!

ooh yeah..i watched THE DEVIL WEARS PRADA the other day and that movie is fantabulous. ergh. i hate the times when i go watch the movies; because of reasons that are not freakingly obvious. and yes, i am a confused child so mercy madame!

oh and,
that song is stuck in my head!

woopeeddoooolittle

2006-09-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

ok ok..the last time i updated was like..erm..a week ago? but oh my freaaaakkkiing god!!!! sooo manny things happened! LONG POST

to the AD people..yes yes..i missed the BBQ..sobs sobs..
citenye macam gini..tak nak pegi sebabbnye nak belajar lah konon..tapi trus..tak terbelajar..lepas tuuu kan..menyesal sendiri tak pergi AD gathering coz i miss you pple soooo much..haha..and i was supposed to be camwhoring w them..next time k pple? jgn marah eh..hehe..

then after that..weeeee..let's fast forward laaa...soo many things happened, i forgot what when where how what why..kk..zee dah start merepek!

teachers' day celebration!
do you realize that when you were much much much younger, there'll be this buzz whenever teacher's or teachers' day (i still get tt confused till today! my god!), like eh..which teachers are you giving presents to? even PARENTS will be busy, trying to please their children's teachers with gifts ~~with hopes of getting bettr grades perhaps.~~

but now..it's like..oh? it's teacher's day? no biggie! heck..i didn't even give anything to any teacher..and i didn't go back to my alma mater..haha..coz i left ij like..ard 1? haha..thks to ariff..who asked me to join his former class with sayfiq, david, victor, mai n all tt people..haha..

oh yeahs..ok..the teacher's day concert was a bit mendak laaaaaaaa...errrgghh..i sat w syafiq, david they all..and guess what? we camwhored! you know what's the best part? we bloody camwhored using the school's camera lah! ahahaha..we'll be like, cameraman, here here! haha..kesian seh..confirm they'll be cursing us..

and yeahs..celebrated deebz's bdae..which falls on september first..you already have loads of bdae wishes babe..so im not gonna gif u one more here..nyehehehe...

pix..well..haha..go to deebz's multiply site.. www.adibahkamal.multiply.com
yeahs.lazy pple..

and today..thks to sumone who asked me to accompany him go jam..i had a fantabulous time with everyone!i purposely asked deebz to come along..heh..dont wanna be the only girl seh..haha..neways, wish the guys all the best for their show tomorrow!

they are damn talented btw..each member can like play several instruments..haha..you're right..im soo envious!

i have soo much more too tell you, but erm..at this current state of mind, hmm..i rather not..else all the nonsensical shit which you don't have to read will come out..

im loving my life!
~~if only i have you with me!~~

nothing happened!

looking GOOD

2006-08-25T23:06:00.000+08:00

guess what?

i was turned on during PCCG yesterday!!! yes, of all lessons, the assembly in the hall turned me on..wooooooo...aahahahaha..no, wait..i'm serious! DEAD SERIOUS! But everything else was dry, if you know what i mean (ggrrriiiinnn)

We had this SAF Drama and smth assemble..and, unfortunately, no no..i wasn't turned on by the guys..heck..ok ok..i was about to say something mean, but i'd rather not! haha..

neways..it was the string ensemble and a capella group tt perfomed.. the string ensemble played a daaaaammmnnn sexy tune such that i was turned on! haha..eyy..don't laugh uh..i wasn't the only one tau..haha..VIGNESH was also turned on..ARIFF too!!!and thanks uh..the guys around me were all laughing when i told them, "sial uh..i high already seh.." haha..cheeky cheeky BAM BAM! luckily sayeem didn't come..or else..confirm kia he make fun rabak2..

that aside..today was our school's USHER's birthday! haha..surprised party for him..fyra, sayeem and gang asked me to come down to the party..luckily filza was there too..not to forget nat and hui jin..or is tt how her name's spelt? HAPPY birhtday to you dearie..i think he' 18..haha..can't rmbr lah..

oh..and guess what? USHER share's the same birthday as my mom and i only remembered that yesterday when my dad asked me to be home early, to which i retorted, saying i end CCA only at 7pm..and he said.."kan besok ibunye birthday"..

[gulp gulp gulp]

G-U-I-L-T-Y!!

random

2006-08-24T00:11:00.000+08:00

i've had enough of this shit.

fuck.

if making you understand requires me screaming then i'll scream.
if making you understand requires me crying, then i'll cry.
but if making you undertstand requires me talking, then i won't, for you won't listen.
hearing you speak, i shall not, for you don't speak, you don't converse. Converse is 2-way, but you're only doing it one-way, how then can we talk? if a compromise can never be reached, i see no point. Simply because...

paradigms have been fixed
tears are flowing thick
nothing can change the stick
for a stick cannot hear you speak

plans gone haywire

2006-08-22T02:44:00.000+08:00

i was out on both days of the weekends..and yesterday, school was sucky..and some people just choose to annoy me more..hmph..mintak tolong pon tak boleh! hahaha

ooohhh...gotta thank my chick - nana! for allowing me to use her photoshop for some stuff..i OWE you a big big one many2..so envious of her; only has school on friday! dang! oh, and good luck for that test of yours huhneeyy..and to that sumone..haha..sorreeyy uh cannot accompany you go watch movie again! dah lah bilang orang last minute..haha..soorrryyy boy!!!

to deebz huhney..sorie lah didnt meet you and belle on saturday nite..coz i was damn tired..haha..and i'll study w ya this sunday or smth okies? haha..jgn merajuk..oohh..and i think im gonna get started on RESTU very soon..any tips?

ok..this is in "conjuction" with saturday.
planning all gone haywire.

Initial plan was neat.
Me.Sak.Nizal.Seri.Arif

in the end..guess who?
Me.~~Sak. Nizal. Seri.~~Arif. PLUS rizal
haha..after eating at ZAMZAM..my gosh..been ages since i last ate there!!!errmm...we watche THE BREAKUP. Movie's funny.
But it's not really, funny funny worth your money funny
it's more of a funny funny damn i wish i didnt watch this movie funny..knw what i mean? like SCARY MOVIE 4, albeit, a bit better!

hahahaha..i went COP-ing w jazimin before i was supposed to meet them..long story..of entwined plans..ahahaha..im tooo lazy to host the pix up to photobucket. Coz sumtimes, it takes eons, and bearing in mind that it's 0242h, im sooo not in the mood to wait! haha..

i might, however, go back to this post and edit it with pictures when im feeling a teeenyy wee bit more patient! i know i know, if i'm gonna come back and edit, mite as well add pix now rite..but hey..i'm so totally not in the moood, love.. haha..tt sounds super wrong, esp in the weeee hours of the morning.

if you're as impatient as me, pictures are here!!!

i'm CORRUPTED. i so totally need VIRUS scan or something.

CORRECT interpretations please

2006-08-18T22:39:00.000+08:00

just check this out. Two people; in the toilet, different cubicles of course...without knowing another person was in another cubicle...

Z : hey A, are you in the process of doing it?

A : No..i m not even starting it

Z : But i thought u said u wanted to do it so badly?

A :

Z out of the cubicle; saw another person coded vidal sassoon (among some peeps) trying to stifle her laughter then A came out

Z : So did u really do it?

A : No!!!

then v.s. was grinning widely..and z turns to her and said...

Z : It's not what you think it is!!!!

v.s. went out of the toilet and was reported laughing ALONE as soon as she stepped out of the toilet from some reliable sources...

Guess what we were talking about? If you're eating while doing this, please don't carry on; read or eat..not both..

this is because...
we were talking about SHITTING you little dirty-minded papadums..HAHA..it happened today, after iBCS course haha..between moiii and ama!!! after the girl left,i told her..she must have thought you were trying to finger-fuck yourself or something!

then ama went..or self-mutilate or heroin overdose or smth..ahaha..ok..i think she didn't exactly say tt but i cant exactly remember what she said coz im too shagged after hockey training and ibcs course and for the record, ibcs is not insert big carrot silly-ly or smth lah...

random

2006-08-18T00:36:00.000+08:00

just let go of the past;
now it's nothing but dust
when the wind blows it away
fault the wind tt made u sway?
your precious gem you cannot hold
your only words seem so bold

golden leaf, the thing you ever want
dried ones, thrown and you're blunt
snap the fingers, you always do
hand on foot; they come to you
or so you want it to
until you know i'm through

just let go of the past;
now it's nothing but dust

some pple would understand. those who don't, continue not to understand. Just be thankful that there are no bitches who can actually ruin your lives - even when you don't allow them to. Of course i can say i don't gif no shit but hey fucker, for how long do you expect me to hold on?

ok. stop it zee. no elaborations.not sucking up to anyone for sympathy.

im flattered

2006-08-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

Somebody serenaded the song tiger lily by MATCHBOOK ROMANCE to me..awwww..so sweeeet..can't deny that his voice is sedap lah..w acoustic guitar and all..i don't usually say this but i was cair-ed..how do u say tt in english? mesmerized is like too strong a word whereas impressed seems insufficient..somewhere in between lah...hahahaha..ehh..he RARELY does it ok..so don't tell me that it is nothing ok..coz, this is something, to me, at least! and he's msg to me "just wanna tell you that i'll always be your friend" awwwww..hehe..im going crazy!
YOU may think it sounds cheeeeseeeyy and stuff but let me have my share of happiness and be over the moon about this small thing can?

he soooo made my day..which would be mundane and tiring otherwise..

and here's another thing..
i reached home at 2225h and guess what? everybody was inside lah..as in..nobody was in the living room; the hall was dark! My parents were already asleep and the kids are all in their rooms..

ding ding ding..

am i the only one who likes to stay up till the wee hours in the morning? not tt i really want to but sometimes, you gotta do what you gotta do..haha..

i mean, don't they have work to do? im not saying my dad is doing no work but asleep.at.ten.twenty-five.on.a.thursday.nite.? free-king unbelievable..
or prolly the old age's catching up on them and don't give a fuck abt teevee anymore..ahahaha...wait..then my brothers have no life? oh my god!!!

oooh..i just went to see...2nd bro's in his room..doin his schoolwork..i tot he was sleeping seyy and myyy..since when in sec 3 did i sleep at 10.25pm? ahahaha...my goodness..when WAS the last time i sleep that early?

okkk..need to rush sum things for PW..and some podcast-ing stuff..T.G.I.F..in like 31 mins more!!!!!

weeeeeeee

and this is something random..
farah and rehan..you people are like the sweetest couple i've ever met though i can also say that you guys are also quite quarrelsome..but HEY..it's been over a year and farah and rehan is still farah and rehan..so...be glad..and why am i saying this? haha..for no reason actually..it just came to my mind..

damn

2006-08-15T12:53:00.000+08:00

i'm STUCK at home because im sick again. This time, really sick..haha..

all thanks to the endless COKEs, chocolatey stuff, STARBUCKS, MCdonalds..who else should i give credit for my sickness? should include SYAFIQ and ADEEL uh..ahahaha..

so yerp..at first my throat's kinda heaty after stuffing all those yummylicious guilty pleasure food then my whole body started feeling the heat..oooh..im HOT bayybeeehh!!!! n so there goes my plan to study for my tests this week when i was all feverish and HAWT..

still have yet to go to the doc's coz it's raining when i woke up!!! I missed physics quiz today. If i get MC for tomorrow as well, im gonna miss CHEM SPA..but there's no way im gonna miss iBCS course and hockey's pitch training 2mr..arrrgghh..i bloody paid for it uh! ahahaha...so die2 must get well TODAY!!! and sakMINAH's supp to update me on the latest new happening at MLEP / MLL lesson..

speaking of which..i've got a test on BUJUR LALU MELINTANG PATAH on thursday..and omfg..i've got maths test tooooo....ho ho ho..i can't afford to fail any tests..not now, not EVER..ceyyy..like REAL

anyway, this guy's finally ORD-ed yesterday.. yeahs!!! ok..i don't know why, but im friggin' happy uh..hahahaha...

but aww..can't see him in uniform anymore..
and to DEEBZ..shut UP..

and i am sooo expecting a treat from him uh..don't worry naz and delia..i've persuaded him..ahahaha..and he said most probably next month but i told him, the sooner the better uh!

i'll need more kisses from you if you want me to get well pronto honey!

missing

2006-08-14T18:30:00.000+08:00

i went to the office TWICE on friday and TWICE juut now but BUT but there is still no wallet being returned..my parents still do not know YET..ahahaha..im not gonna tell them soooo SOOOOOON uh..die seh..i/c all inside..must make police report lah..kedebak kedebuk lah..so leceh.

neways..new layout..temporary jek..coz i just desperately wanted and needed a CHANGE from the old one but im tooooo fucking lazy to create a new one..and no, my favourite colour isn't GREEN (just in case you're wondering) and i think my reggae / reggaeton music will be up back verrrryyyy soon...ahahaha..

i just REMEMBERED!!!!!
somebody wants to dirty dance with me
" you dance fucking well uh" - his words, not mine but alas, identity shall not be revealed..ahahahaha..

oooohh yes..and today..guess what???
i reached my LRT station at 1800h..and this is like a fucking big deal coz it's been 1567329473984 months since i last reached home arond this time..oohh..and i am supposed to be mugging for physics quiz tomorrow - THERMAL physics and ELECTRIC FIELD..but guess what? your dearest(selenge) friend here cannot find her ELECTRIC FIELD notes!!!!

aaarrrrrggghhhh..and im feeling all heaty inside..prolly having a fever soon but i can't MISS LESSONS...no, not because im all too enthusiastic and hyped out to go to school but because my week is peppered with tests everyday!!! except TODAY and FRIDAY..but but BUT..i have something on on friday..i can't remember what though but i KNOW i've got something on..i just KNOW it..i DO

Safe singapore?

2006-08-13T22:13:00.000+08:00

To all those who keep thinking that singapore's safe from any disasters..well..guess what?

we are all wrong!
i say we, because i am one of those who thinks that singapore is damn safe and im admitting it. at least im not a hyprocrite like some pathetic bitches who need to realise that their "act" is soooo not an act. To these people, fuck off, or perhaps, some acting lessons would do you more good.

Anyway, i caught the "twister at sentosa" thingy on the news at ch 5..ok..credit must go to adeel who sms-ed me about it.Else, i wouldn't even bother watching the news..yes yes..ignorant lil' bitch. i must admit i was skeptical about the twister at first. Simply because, this IS SINGAPORE..helloo..the only time singapore came close to experiencing a natural disaster was some years back when we felt a lil bit of the tremors of an earthquake in some parts of indonesia.So, obviously..hehe..i tot adeel was kidding!

The reporter said that the people who saw it, well, they are being guuunduus i think, because instead of protecting themselves from it, they actually went CLOSER, oh, for the love of god, to snap pictures of it..Singaporeans what..oh wait..there were tourists as well..

aaahhh..i guess many of them are proud to have actually caught such a sight. Tell me, how often can you spot such things in this tiny, little, robotic, conformist country? haha..where almost everything is governed by policies, looked after by the government and etc etc..

like what dear david loves to say "qiamat is coming"

fuck

2006-08-11T22:58:00.000+08:00

i lost my wallet in school today!

depressed!!! ergh..

it's not about the wallet wallet but the CONTENTS inside my wallet uh..alamak..but if u wanna buy me new wallet..i don't mind

out of this world

2006-07-31T19:28:00.000+08:00

i know you guys are waiting for me to update and stuffs but im been extremely busy.

but now, one chapter of my life is over, and no words could ever describe the gamut of emotions me and those involved feel.

a big big thank you to all those who graced the event, involved in one way or another, by coming down to an ulu area like kreta ayer, thank you very the much! I made new friends!!!

and i received this message when i woke up on sunday

AWALLAH DONDANG was a blast. It was truly amazingly fantastic. V proud o you. Dari cast n dancers to musicians n crews..u gave it all.PUAS! i feel so puashati. So puas tt i woke up feeling like i wanna hug u peeps somemore.Love you all and from de bottom o my heart, thank you 4 making mine n kak bid's dream come true - from kak zu, one of the orang kuat and kak bid is actually our director aka the president of PERBAYU NTU-NIE.

Only those people who've had these kind of experiences knew how each and everyone of us felt. Satisfaction, after all the hard shitty work, running here and there for rehearsals.. damn..i missed that feeling..even though we don't have the support of the teacher who's in charge of us (the irony of it all), the warm response from the crowd, their laughter, the applauses we got..gosh..i feel like tearing again..

im gonna miss the guys from SP and NP..the CUTE guys..haha..gonna miss the girls from NYJC.

oh, and because of the tremendous things i do with my leg,(don't think dirty) i strained my muscles again..so i didn't go school today and supposedly, clayton ang wanted to talk to me about my commitments in school..hmm..sounds bad uh..i think it IS bad..

anyway, my leg is still strained but i only have MC for today but im excused from PE for a whole WEEEEEEEKKK...weeeeee..but im also excused from hockey..awww..that is sad.

and for the record, im falling deeply in love with hockey now, can? haha..but hockey still 2nd in my list. 1st will always be theatre..ceyyy..

oh..and my tummy hurts from laughig too much yesterday..while studying w adeel..we did STUDY ok..and i discovered adeel can be quite a himbo! hahaha..and he knws it too!

and for the awallah dondang pix, wait uh..i upload to my multiply then you guys see la..ooooohh..i just got a msg frm kak zu..u guys can catch some of the pix
at www.mafianet.myphotoalbum.com

to all those who've been there for me, thanks a lot babes and dudes..i love you guys! which reminds me...i must MUST thank syafiq for his uber sweeeeetttnneessss, accompanying me on the phone while i walked home from senja lrt station cause i missed the last lrt train on saturday nite! THANK YOU to the max syafiq! its significant ok..it was 12++..and his mom scolded him..but he made sure i reached home b4 he put down..haha..im blessed to haf buddies like tt..(confirm kembang sia tt guy)

My weekend

2006-07-17T12:48:00.000+08:00

Saturday morning, i had the Gemilang 2006 thingy..and -phew-..it's finally over! Oh, and while on the way to school, my shoe just had to give way..luckily kind cikgu tetty julz gave me some uhu glue..haha..

the winners

Kasbani, won Personality Gemilang 2006
Syazwani, 2nd from the left, was the 1st prize winner..and the other two..i forgot which is which..haha..

the partners

with seri, my fave organiser! love u babe!!!
and dinie..best soundman!!!

more pix..click here

then after the whole gemilang thingy, i had some reharsal for AWALLAH DONDANG..until about 4plus..tehn went with seri, sak and sak's friend, nizal..b4 i met david..we went to watch BAYBEATS...PLAIN SUNSET rocks!

before farah left,

syafiNAZ and sha

SHA left me n naz in the "mosh pit" of the arena..haha..we didn't plan to mosh but we got sucked in! hahaha...funny la..and NAZ..nice chilling with you!!!!

ooohh..and here's a pic of the very cute guitarist from one buck short!!!!

but he covered his face with this bunny, which is nonetheless, still CUTE!

this is NICE

and i reached home close to midnite..damn tired..after one whole SATURDAY outside..

more pix..click here

and on SUNDAY,
i woke up at 4pm..can you believe it? haha..all my sleep DEBT was paid! and thks to secret agent..whom i was sms-sing when i was partially SLEEPING around 1 plus to 2plus..haha..met him at BUGIS w his friend..around 5.30pm..haha..and he's damn good at pool uh! both him and his jude-y friend!

They were good..till i feel intimidated and decided not to play sia..

They played the nine-ball game!

Cool Stuff! and today, is my college's off day, in lieu of POLLING DAY..so yeahs..haha..ape lagi..belajar uh!

script, script, scripted

2006-07-12T22:29:00.000+08:00

never in my life have i worked on three separate scripts on a single day!

was working w khai, who's sucha darling and happens to be my alter ego, for this saturday's gemilang. sweet-ness!

then NOW, i am doing the podcast script which is to be recorded this friday and karen tay wants the script by TONITE!!

im also discussing with dear Nisa for a BIG SCALE event, something to do with racial harmony day..and the script for that is due this friday!

and my PW's GPP also due friday..
what else?

i cant remember..oooohh..maths assignment 13! damn.

and 2mr im gonna miss maths aft PE coz i got AD rehersal frm 5.30-8.30pm at sum pri. sch at YISHUN but here's the catch..i end school only at 5.40..n im supposed to have maths evening elct plus test from 5.40-6.40..

so anybody disagrees that im busy? wahahahaha

bad friday

2006-07-07T21:51:00.000+08:00

today, everything just went wrong.

i've disappointed people who had hopes on me.

i can't say sorry here coz obviously, the affected people (read: teachers) are not gonna read this.

but seriously, i feel bad.

and ama, sorie babes..for, you know..this morning's lateness and for "convincing" you not to go to the malay lit thingy but for the iBCS meeting instead. But at least you got your paper back. i still don't.

oh, and i failed malay lit too. that was like, woah..only 9 people, out of 37 i think, passed.

so, i failed like 3 out of 4 of my h2 subjects. like wtf! i'm supposed to be able to cope with 4 H2..and i failed 3..now that's not funny ..i know i was expecting it coz i didn't study MUCH..

but well..ok..i just feel like totally shitty now..and i've got to think about him. ergh-ness..

crap. i just reached home..and in less than 12hrs, i'll be out again..damn tired..haha..but well, i gotta do what i gotta do right? haha..

whatever lah zee. just shut up!

*edited
fairuz wants me to add this..

why is superman's outfit super tight?
he's wearing a size "S"!

get this right

2006-07-06T04:14:00.000+08:00

im watching portugal vs france!

can you believe it?
well, just believe it!

christiano ronaldo..oooohhh..hawt!

but i support france! haha

i got my life back

2006-07-05T22:50:00.000+08:00

i've been super busy ever since my last entry. haha..

didn't know that bitching caused quite a stir. anyway, she didn't get around to scolding us yet. and i don't think she ever will..oh well..

anyway, i've got my life back!!!! yeay!!!
i wasn't dead for sure, but now, i'm back, involved in activities, after activities..haha..my life revolves around school, as always, until my dad asked how much the school's paying us for staying there for like..erm..12-14 hrs? if only they let us sleep at the sports school, i would have gladly done so.

monday
A.D. rehearsal quite finished up my youth day ~~holiday~~ at tampines! then watched SUPERMAN RETURNS. perhaps i was too tired from the rehearsal the entire day such that i actually wanted to sleep during the movie! ahaha..sorie ahem.

tuesday
sheeeesshh...it was the "first day" of school..and guess what? i forgot what time i was supposed to leave the house uh!!! haha..had to run seh as i neared school as that fat ass already signalled to us to hurry and stuff...then -bam- first two hours physcis prac..wth..haha..mendak babe!
then after school..i forgot what i did. my gaaawwwddd..tt's only yesterday!!

wednesday aka today
had my GCE 'A' LEVEL MALAY ORAL EXAMINATION.
crappy.
wanna knw my question?
" soalan hari ini ialah masalah cetak rompak"
that's it. that's it. that's it.
oh yuh..wanna thks that helmi frm nyp..haha..chatted with me at MSN in MALAY..can you believe that? as in FULL BLOWN malay..just because i've got oral today..haha..thks eh!

oh..and i got back my exam papers!!!
MATHS - U
PHYSICS - U
CHEMISTRY - C

wahaha..i failed 2 H2 subjects already!!! waiting for malay lit and h1 malay..

friday i'll be going on air..so innovians..please come early! haha..
saturday and sunday full of rehearsals..

and my schedule for next week..hmm..tuesday - PW Meeting, wednesday - iBCS, hockey meeting, friday - hockey, saturday&sunday - AD Rehearsal...my weekends are GONE already, for the entire month of JULY!!!!

how the hell am i suppose to date now?

haha..i've got no TIME!!! guys and men can put one side first uh..
(note : boys are not included )

i just can't help it

2006-07-02T00:39:00.000+08:00

im gonna bitch.
so if you think u're not game for this,
treat this as a warning.
i'm telling you FIRST
kindly leave NOW.

i hate LAST MINUTE stuffs..
it's not the normal last minute kind u knw..but SCHOOL!!! i mean with school..when there are events which requires us to go to another school, obviously the teachers are informed earlier..i mean..like hello..schools are the one organising what..there will surely be at least one teacher in charge overseeing everything and make sure things get done.so..where's the excuse?

where's the excuse of telling us ON THE DAY itself that we're supposed to be somewhere else?
Not including the FACT that somebody actually ASKED her if there was such an event the day BEFORE..to which she replied, since many of us are involved in sum rehearsal shit, it's not compulsory..obviously..i paraphrased..

but GUESS WHAT?

she had the guts to call/sms people up on the day itself,at like..what..10+++ am urging them to go to an event which starts at 3pm?

like HELLLLLLLOOOO...
summer tests (for non-innovians, tt's our sch's mid year exams..stew-pitt i knw..but well..tt's innova for you) are just OVER..and in conjuction with monday being a school holiday coz it's youth day..OBVIOUSLY some people have PLANS already..

where's her CONSIDERATION towards others?
if you're asking what about our school image? hey..wasn't it YOU who said that it WAS NOT COMPULSORY in the fucking first place? or have you deleted that from your SELECTIVE MEMORY..since you're also ~~quite~~ very selective with students?

she could have asked the student who sms-ed her the day before to at least spread to the people..tt's at least something seh..as compared to ON THE DAY ITSELF..though i'll still be pissed since it's STILL FUCKING LAST MINUTE LAH!

and then many people could not make it, i mean, im not surprised man..thank goodness im in A.D. if not..if i were approached, i wont fucking go..i have had enough of YOU and YOUR STINKY, UNPROFESSIONAL attitude.

then then then..she asked the people involved in AD to go..ask the organisers to release us at 2 instead of 3pm so tt we can rush to tpjc.

one - we were sooo NOT in our school uniform
two - from the place we were..yishun..it's gonna take more than an hour to reach tpjc.
three - if you're late for a FORMAL event, and you're not properly attired, i think tt's just PLAIN DOWNRIGHT RUDE. it's like you're not respecting the school that's organising it and you're not respecting the event and the other school participants that are PROPERLY ATTIRED AND PUNCTUAL! i think u'll be tarnishing your school's reputation then bringing it up man..

and the A.D. rehearsal is a COMBINED school rehearsal..if one school just LEAVE bcoz ooohh..their teacher forgot to tell her OTHER STUDENTS tt there's an IMPT event so, as a last resort is turning to these people to add some grace to the school..so can u please let them go? i dont gif a shit abt ur rehearsal..

LIKE HELLO?
combined school can? it's not easy for i think 3-4 schools to come together and rehearse.

then i think in the end, out of 35, only 4-5 went? it's FUCKING PATHETIC.

she sms-ed some of them to gather the mlep students on tuesday at 12pm and meet her..

like hello..what she gonna do? blast at us? come on la..i wont be sitting dwn there like an asshole being SCOLDED, if she intends to, for NOTHING.

won't u be pissed if you're in my shoes?

now wr.t some recent event...

for some of you who are quite "somebody" right now..please lah..be HUMBLE and practise some COURTESY can? if you said you can't make it, then at least have the decency to call up the school can? there's this thing called we can find a fucking replacement?

then when YOU say YOU cannot make it..please don't have the cheek to turn up at our school LATE when eh, i tot u said u REALLY CANNOT MAKE IT? and ONLY MAKE YOURSELF FEEL LESS GUILTY.

to this people, i can really do WITHOUT you!
FUCK OFF isn't an option anymore. it's now a MUST!
so go, fuck off!

ok. i'm done! [smiles like an idiot]

scary movie 4

2006-06-29T22:55:00.000+08:00

yerp.
i went on a date.

don't gasp and tell me "waah, you move on so fast zee! " like the many reactions i've received thus far..

haha..what do you expect me to do?

sunk into a deep abyss of sadness, with eyes that speak of sorrow?

please la.

think along this line. because you're worth it. like...erm..because.he.is.not.worth.it..yerps..and you'll be fine and bouncing in no time!

trust me.

scary movie 4 - crappily funny.
him - funny..haha..

but really, why the inferiority complex? (thanks syafiq!)

coincidence

2006-06-22T12:21:00.000+08:00

ok..im like blogging, again.

just stumbled upon this. how apt. This is a super long thingy. I myself scrolled down all the way to the bottom and was like..wtf..it's super long but when i read thru everything..yerp..it makes sense.

so if you wanna get a glimpse of love, read this. i say get a glimpse because reading, and experinceing it for yourself is like 2 different things. just because u said "i love you" to someone doesn't mean that u've been in love before, if you know what i mean.

to my dear friends, im fine with the break up. seriously. actually, it made me realise who i really want to be with. and it's not him. n im not saying this only because he broke up w me. ok..i can like continue rattling..but i think u guys shud read this..

d e f i n i t i o n . o f . l o v e
Message: When you think of your past love,
you may
view it as a failure. But when you find a new
love, you view the past as a teacher.

In the game of love, it doesn't really matter
who won or who lost. What is important is you
know when to hold on and when to let go!

You know you really love someone when
you want him or her to be happy, even if his or
her happiness means that you're not part of
it.

Everything happens for the best. If the
person you love doesn't love you back, don't
be afraid to love someone else again, for
you'll never know unless you give it a try.

You'll never love a person you love unless
you risk for love.

Love strives in hurting. If you don't get hurt,
you don't learn how to love.

Love doesn't hurt all the time. Though the
hurting is still there to test you, to help you
grow.

Don't find love, let love find you.

That's why it's called falling in love because
you don't force yourself to fall. You just fall.

You cannot finish a book without closing its
chapters. If you want to go on, then you
have to leave the past as you turn the pages.

Love is not destroyed by a single failure or
won by a single caress. It is a lifetime
venture in which we are always learning,
discovering and growing.

The greatest irony of love is letting go when
you need to hold on and holding on when
you need to let go.

We lose someone we love only when we are
destined to find someone else who can love
us even more than we can love ourselves.

When love fails, take some time to heal and
then get back on the horse. But don't ever
make the same mistake of riding the same
one that threw you the first time.

To love is to risk rejection; to live is to risk
dying, to hope is to risk failure. But risk must
be taken because the greatest hazard in life
is to risk nothing!

To reach for another is to risk involvement, to
expose your feelings is to expose true self; to
love is to risk not to be loved in return.

How to define love: fall but do not stumble,
be constant but not too persistent, share and
never be unfair, understand and try not to
demand, hurt but never keep the pain.

Love is like a knife. It can stab the heart or it
can carve wonderful images into the soul
that always last for a lifetime.

Love is supposed to be the most wonderful
feeling. It should inspire you and give you joy
and strength. But sometimes the things that
give you joy can also hurt you in the end.

Loving people means giving them the
freedom that they choose to be and where
they choose to be.

For all the heartaches and the tears, for
gloomy days and fruitless years, you should
give thanks, for you know, that there were the
things that helped you grow.

Loving someone means giving him the
freedom to find his way, whether it leads
towards you or away from you.

Love is a painful risk to take but the risk
must be taken no matter how scary or
painful, for only then you'll experience the
fullness of humanity and that is love.

Only love can hurt your heart, fill you with
desire and tear you apart. Only love can
make you cry and only love knows why.

If you're not ready to cry, if you're not ready to
take the risk, if you're not ready to feel the
pain, then you're not ready to fall in love.

There was a time in our lives when we
became afraid to fall in love 'coz
every time we do, we get hurt, then I figured
that's why it's called falling in love.

stop it

2006-06-22T10:49:00.000+08:00

stop telling me that me and xxxx will be back together! haha..

ok for those of you who know, well..you know la..for those of you who don't, then..let this befound you.

when i talk abt him, deebz says that i still love him..hahahahahha..because it's been quite a while and even though i've had boyfriends after xxxx and dated guys after xxxx, i still talk abt xxxx..heck..i used to have loads of xxxx's pix in my hp..n he asked me for mine too..but i deleted some..SOME because i dont have the heart to delete all..haha..

whenever i tell our story, people cried. haha..and say that we should be back together..if not now, someday..coz it looks like we're meant for one another..but the thing is..we're never together..but we're always thought of as one..our hearts were entwined, yes, that i can't deny..but..i used the word "WERE"..i can't say the same for now.

but sometimes, what people think is not what we think..u got me? or have i already lost you?

anyways, it's been a year between me n him n yeahs..we still think of each other..he called me up a couple of times..when he's free..i called him up..haha..but to tell him abt my dates..break up..but not the recent one..he told me he missed me..i feel the same way too..but it stops there..

coz when we unexpectedly met, well, it's like..the spark between us is gone?

but..
but..
but..

another him just told me that xxxx still has feelings for me...maybe he was trying to distance himself from me so that he won't fall for me though in his heart, he yearns for me..

i was the first girl he dated after two years
i was the first girl he told why he didn't want us to be together..hey..tt's my secret w him..so yeahs..im not spilling anything! :p usually, he told me, he just tells the girl..i think we shudn't be tog n tt's it.
he was the one who taught me what love really is.
his actions vouch for words he need not speak
he didn't tell me he loved me until sometime later..

but..
but..
but..

i could FEEL his love, just like he could SENSE mine b4 we even talked about it. none of us mentioned the LOVE word until we were sure of it..

im not trying to compare my ex-es with him but this is why he stands out from the rest. he didnt even need to know abt my past. my uncountable no. of ex-es didn't bother him..heck, he didn't even ask me! i didnt ask him either..he knew i hav admirers..someone was chasing me when we started our..erm..i dont knw what to call that..erm..a relationship tt's not one? i knew he hav his too but it didnt bother me because well..even though some things aren't spoken, it's like, it's understood?

u know? sometimes u can just feel down n go to someone. you don't have to utter a single word but his presence will just make u feel better.

things are just too complicated rite now..im on REBOUND remember? so..yeahs..and it doesn't help that someone's still waiting for me too..

oh and i forgot to add that he's 6years older? i know, age is nothing but a number. STILL....

ending of a "fairytale"

2006-06-21T20:43:00.000+08:00

yups. im single.

ok. you know what, im not gonna bore you with oh, sobbing tales of why we broke up and whatever shit.

as much as i love him, i guess he's not worth it afterall. Yes, this is an afterthought. i don't hate him. i only hate what he did to me. ok.do they mean the same thing? haha..oh wells..

and i just realised that there's someone who has been waiting for me for a year..hmmmmsss...

still thinking

read this

2006-06-17T09:48:00.000+08:00

tagged by diana, my ex ccks np mate..haha

ok..here goes nothing..

random questionaire

- 7 RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME:
1) i can laugh, real LOUD
2) i eat, like A LOT
3) i hate waiting
4) i am just irritating
5) i just realise i can rhyme when i don't mean to
6) i wish i have lesser siblings..5 younger ones are just too much
7) i love haziq this IS a fact MIND YOU

- 7 THINGS THAT SCARE ME:
1) when my comp/internet/MSN isn't working..
no chat..no frenster..no blogging..boy..tt's scary uh

2)when my boyfriend goes ns..gonna miss him..
ok..tt's like, in 2yrs time..so?

3) if i don't see any of my friends..even for a day!
now, don't be jealous if u're not my fren, since i love them soooo much!

4) how irfaan's gonna cope wen he grows up
for the benefit for those who don't knw, irfaan's my youngest brother who can't hear hence can't speak..yet..so yeahs

5) sceamo / emo music..haha..
it's just so scary..tt's y im not into it..sorry baby! haha

6) wen SHAhida-TOOOOOL beats me for making her scream in PUBLIC..wahahahahaha

7) if hazeeq is just haziq n zee
i love you boy

- 7 RANDOM MUSIC AT THE MOMENT:
1) from autumn to ashes : AUTUMN'S MONOLOGUE
2) PUSSYCAT DOLLS : buttons
3) rihanna : UNFAITHFUL
4) THREE DOORS DOWN: Far Away
5) bon jovi: I'M ALL ABOUT LOVING YOU
6) BOB MARLEY - turn your lights down low
7) damien marley - PIMPA'S PARADISE

- 7 THINGS I LIKE THE MOST:
1) chilling at starbucks / coffeebean n LAUGH
2) pool-ing
3) seeing my frens SMILE
4) go n watch theatre!!! so deebz darling..im goin for ur production
5) speaking of which, i LOVE to act
6) and talk..and talk..and talk..
7) being loved by him

- 7 THINGS I SAY THE MOST:
1) fuck
2) babi trust me, this is only RECENTLY
3) fuck him/her upside down, left right centre uh
4) asshole
5) basket
6) waaaaaatttt?
7) i love you to him

- 7 PEOPLE TO DO THIS:
1) my bitch - farah
2) syahidah-tool..pardon me for not knwing hw to spell ur name PROPERLY
3) kam / nasuha
4) nazilah
5) "uncle sha"
6) asmah tpjc
7) aini!!!

ok..for the record, my cramps are killing me! ergh..n the fact that i've barely started studying when my first paper is on the 23rd..yes yes..the last friday of the june hols..tt's my MLL paper..damn..n the rest follows when term starts..

if i were to predict correctly..i'm gonna flunk my maths..phy..chem n MLL..huahuahua..

niat tu sbnrnye ade, cume tak tercapai jek.. hehehe
ok..im gonna start burning midnite oil uh..
now im having 2nd thoughts of goin to escape tomorrow..hmmmms..

random

2006-06-13T20:52:00.000+08:00

from tabby, " guys and soccer, you can't like tear them apart"

from farah's sakeena, " all the girls in the world will be soooooooo lonely now"

from me, " they're both right. and i hate it!like, seriously!!!"

i'm finally back, really

2006-06-11T20:56:00.000+08:00

ok people..miss me no more coz zee's in the house once again! is that your sorakkan i hear? ahahaha..talk about shameless act!

the MLEP camp, which i thought was gonna be MENDAK turned out to be SUPERB..minus the lectures which made us fall asleep = bitching time for me, seri, asmah, aini, masse, aishah n muhaimin = the whole group = ZAMRUD = 1st prize winner!!!

woohooo!!!in case any of u ZAMRUDians are reading this..i miss u guys!!! oh yeah..a pity shafwan cudn't be w us thru'out the entire camp..which turned out to be a good thing since it made muhaimin the only guy hence he was bullied by us mean girls..ahahahahaha..

highlights of the camp..

got to meet pple like dinie, ikmal again..
got to meet new tpjc-ians..haha..the guys were crazee..n faizal's tea was THE BEST uh..haha..as for the girls..some appear bitchy but they'e not..
just like me.."you look like a bitch, zee" according to cereal..haha..but im NOT..i THINK..haha..
ooh..i was the only ij girl, i think, who sneaked into the tp guy's room to watch like 5-10 mins of the germany vs costa rica opening match..haha..obviously there were other girls..im not THAT shameless, mind YOU..
ooohh..n we sneaked muhaimin into MY room..when the group's practising for the performance..hahaha..shhh..jgn blg cikgu eh.. coz the teacher was like.."if there's an opposite gender, do not go into ur rooms..

n speaking of rooms..
my GAAAAWWWWDDDDD...it's like a hotel room..except that there's no tv's..n wen i say hotel, i really mean it..the room key's like the hotel card..and you need to slot the card into the thingy so that thee's power in ur room..

cool kan kan kan kan kan kan kan?

and i want pictures!!!! please send it to me ASAP..

and farah bitch! i can't study w ya 2mr..coz i gotta meet w MISS TABBY for my jingle n podcast recording meeting..and..u still havent tell me ur stories!!!

i miss YOU!!

2006-06-06T17:07:00.000+08:00

ok..im currently at the business centre in kuantan..was frm kelantan..then went down to terengganu.then now im at kuantan...n 2mr..i'll be at the jembatan! wahahaha...

ok ok..i just cannot resist goin to the business centre this time round..omfg..how many days sia w/o the internet? since saturday till today...woootttss..

as i suspected..nth much for me to do here..hahahaha..n if i follow my mom go shopping for sum batik stuff..confirm plus chop..i jadi tukang angkat seh..haha..

i miss everybody! farah bitch!!! syasya-TOOL..sling..siti...n sape2 lagi la..

i miss my BABY!!!

oh..n i asked him to cure me from an illness..i can't stop sms-ing him!!! aahahahaha..even when im here..right now..not in town...ergh..miss u so much..also miss my idiotic brother who's currently in melbourne..n will only be back on the 14th..screw u!!! ergh..hw i wish i was there n u're here instead..ahahaha...

ok..im wondering hw's my pw goin on..i just checked my mail..n receive nth frm them leh..hmms..

anyways..by the time i come back to sing..on the 7th..i've got lit camp frm 8th-11th..by the time i come back from tt..nearly half of the june "hols" is gone..shittos....my EXAMS are cumin up..n im "enjoying" myself here..ahahaha...

i just wanna keep on rmabling n rambling n not get off the chair or out of the business centre..i wan my internet!!!!

i wan my baby n my friends!!!

wanna hug them n kiss them n whatever not!

i wanna tell tehm i love them!!! ahahaha..

n i just discovered that my youngest brother..the one whose pic u see in sum prev entry, is actually a SADDIST!!! whenever he sees a cat when we go n eat..he'll kick and laugh..n i'll be liek the SPCA spokesperson n tell him, please do not abuse animals..wahahahaa...

i'm just thinking whatever will happen if he goes back to the kampung n see all the chickens..

just for you to know

2006-06-02T21:34:00.000+08:00

i receive a lot of this kind of repeated stuff..n decided to publish them here..lazy lah..to forward all this crap..not that i believe in them anyway..haha..if u let ur love life be controlled by junk mails..no matter how true they claim they are, boy..u better be checking your email like everyday lah

26 Things That A Perfect Guy Would Do

1. Know how to make you smile when you are down.

2. Try to secretly smell your hair, but you always notice.

3. Stick up for you, but still respects your independence.......

4. Give you the remote control during the game.

5. Come up behind you and put his arms around you.

6. Play with your hair.

7. His hands always find yours.

8. Be cute when he really wants something.

9. Offer you plenty of massages.

10. Dance with you, even if he feels like a dork.

11. Never run out of love.

12. Be funny, but know how to be serious.

13. Realize he's being funny when he needs to be serious.

14. Be patient when you take forever to get ready.

15. React so cutely when you hit him and it actually hurts.......

16. Smile a lot.

17. Plans a romantic date full of cheesy things he wouldn't normally like to do, just because he knows it means a lot to you.

18. Appreciate you.

19. Help others out.

20. Drive 5 hours just to see you for 1.

21. Always gives you a peck on the cheek when you depart from each others company, even when his friends are watching.

22. Sing, even if he can't.

23. Have a creative sense of humor.

24. Stare at you.

25. Call for no reason.

26. Quit smoking, chewing, drinking, or drugs - just because he loves u that much to quit it.

swwwweeett..definitely..

u'll be missing me

2006-06-02T13:25:00.000+08:00

ahakz..title is like so tak tahu malu!!!!

i'll be away la..to sum ulu place in m'sia..frm 3-7...trust me..i dun wanna go there...ahahahaha..

then once i come back..i've got MLEP camp w TPJC..frm the 8-11..ahahahaha..but sadly..there's only 2 guys per grp..haiz..

me n seri darling were saying..they put 10 guys in our grp also not enuff! ahahaha..

kk..in sch rite now..waiting for blardy malay..today then i knw i got oral ~~practice~~ which is counted for CA..crap..all bcoz of the NEW system which requires all H2 students to take H1 students as well..blardy shit..

haha..im so damn dead can?

didnt go for the oral lecture coz i was absent from school!!!

wish me L-U-L-U-L-U-C-K..AHAHAHA..ashley simpson..bleahs...

adorably cute

2006-06-01T20:51:00.000+08:00

i just adore my brother. he was happily watching the television..sitting on the beach chair...and nobod realised he fell asleep..bcoz..this was how he slept...

my baby said he's training to be the bigboss! heck. even I don't sleep like that..

happy-ness

2006-05-27T23:37:00.000+08:00

haha..this word - learnt frm farah filza! haha..

neways..

went out w some girls - nash, ama..

ahahaa

i missed those days of just merayap2 n don't care about anythhing else..haha..been sucha loooooong time since i last did tt lah..

walk2 at esplanade..tehn diyanah halik approach us!!! ahahaha..yes yes, aaron aziz's wife! she's nice..approach us to join some freaking 150 course! ahakz..sorie babe..but my dad tak cap duit uh! ahahaha..

then then then..we spent hours, and i seriously meant hours at this pop something shop..hours becoz ama sempat berak..and then aft sum time, i joined her berak-king..then when we came out, nash was still there! ahahaha

ok. gross. i knw. but hey, u chose to read my blog..***shruggs***no obligations..ahahaha

i wud haf gone ahead n joined them go tampiness..haha...but wanted to make up w him...so..decided to meet him..i knw, im sweet! ahakz..but BUT BUT nearly never meet seh..if just now never meet, confirm darah up giler up nye..ahahaha...

now everything's ok..love ya baby..

funny thing..his family n my family were at banquet together..but we weren't there!

ooooooooh

2006-05-26T22:39:00.000+08:00

ok ok ok..

im sooo excited!!!!

today...

last day...

term 2..

woohoo!!!

ya rite..holidays cuming..oh i forgot the inverted comas..darn farking "holidays" coming!!!

ok..wait wait..i just created a gmail acoount! ahakz..so the very jakun can? neways..its mamazeeasta@gmail.com..ahaha..cool rite? pronounced as zee-s-ta..like "fiesta" (thks syafiq!) haha..

and i've got something on 2mr..

mad at him. like,whatver lah k..

loads of things happening during the june hols...and im suddenly lazy to blog..ahakz..ok ok...i wanna go out w my darling ccks peeps sumtimes..

and the guys frm tp n mj(fahmi, u specially tercampak)..oouh ya..the ij peeps!!!jaz!! i still owe u money for ameerul's pressie! hahahahaa...belated nak mampos! i've been hutang-ing pple money for class fund la, course la..haha..money matters always not on time seh..kenape eh? haha..

i wanna start working! start clubbing! start stripping..wahahaha...no lah..kidding la..

farah!!! rehan!!! me!!! my boyfriend!!! the 4 of us shud shud shud go out tog one day! and farah will be my new studying partner..ahahaha...fajar mc eh babe!!! haha..

oh ya..the other day..me n my baby sent farah home! bawah her blk got cine mati! hahahaha...

"ok. tt was so random" argh!!! gonna miss berneeeeeeeeesse! tt's my gp tutor btw. we don't address her by miss smth. heck. i even forget her surname! hahas. she's an rjc grad.so she's only 19..relieving my actual gp tutor...whom i dunno! she's very interesting! hahs. funny. weird.in a nice way of course!

n she owes me grey anatomy's dvd.

or is it, grey's anatomy?

oh well. whatever. she still owes me tt lah..and thks for the ben & jerry pints!!! woohoo!!!

swirling

2006-05-21T23:09:00.000+08:00

a penny for my thoughts
as so i like to speak
to think freedom is bought
just for those with greed

having pity is never useful
sympathy is never asked for
but why do we still pity and sympathise?
just so we say we can emphathise?
what good does emphathy do?
makes one weaker and dependent too?

just.think.about.it

1 more week to go!

2006-05-19T21:28:00.000+08:00

before i start, wanna thank you for all your taggies and stuff. ahahaa..im ok lah..it's just that you know, at that point of time, i needed somewhere to erm..vent my anger? yeah..tt kind of thing so yeahs...haha

another hectic week passed and i didn't realise we have one more week to go before the "holidays"! wahahaha the only sad thing is that we have exams on wed - GP and ML and all the other subjects will be during the last week of June..i gotta buck up liao..screwed up my maths n physics CA already, i think...n i also think CHEM SPA is gone!

oooh..forgot to say this - today was sports day! though i didn't take part in any events, it was erm..great? the greatest part was the cheerleading as in the "ready OK cheerleading not the crowd cheer..hahaha..yay! taurus cheerleaders is the cheerleading champ! woohoo...we were the defending champions last year, tho i wasn't involved last year but this year..the j1s and j2s did it again! ahahahaha...the paiseh part was when the house committee asked "taurus, do u think ur cheerleaders are sexy?" ahaha..so MALU and then aft they saw all the peroformance, they say..TAURUS, your cheerleaders are the hottest..ahahah..i've no comments!

i enjoyed myself being part of the cheerleading thingy..can't wait for people to send me pix! ahahaha..made new friends..love them..gonna miss the j2s...sobs sobs..

and congrats to rasalas for winning the overall house champion for sports day..and the camp..nvm nvm..hopefully taurus will catch up ar..ahahah...

so much for understanding

2006-05-12T21:06:00.000+08:00

im damn pissed, can?

sometimes i just feel like shaking my parent's shoulders, hang them upside down and shake them left to right...just to make them realise that currently, at present, like right now, i am a jc student!!!!

i am no longer in secondary school, or primary school for that matter such that when it's holidays, it's really holidays.

but come on lah..even when im in sec what..2? holidays have become "holidays" meaning there is school only that we do not follow the usual timetable..there's no flag-raising or assembly or announcements made but there's long 2-3 hour classes, camps..workshops..rehearsals...

so if my life in sec sch is already like tt of a working person, how can one expect my lif as a jc student to be any much less hectic?

even the 2nd vice-p said that ur time spent in a jc is shorter and more compact than in a university bcoz in jc, you only have 1.5 yrs to complete your "course" whereas in uni you have like 3-4 years? so obviously your jc life is so much more packed..that plus your CCAs and that fucking PW and all other tests, projects in between...hell...i've forgotten what holidays are really like...

when it's already so hard..with "supportive" classmates...the last thing i need is my parents down my back. it's fucking easy lah to say...you must know how to balance your time damn it..find me one example of a jc student who does just that? study + school events/activities + tests/exams + housework/chores

fuck it lah..

whatever happened to resting when you're at home..

i can't, for the love of god, rest in school..and unlike working people who can say "im not gonna bring work home", what choice do students really have? can they tell their teachers "im not gonna bring work home because my mummy expects me to do house chores at home"..like..wth..the teacher will probably laugh his ass off and bar you from taking the exams or something...

so whenever i can rest, of course i will choooooooose to rest and refuse to do anything. but sadly, that's not what my parents have in mind.

if i cant wake up late during the weekends..then how am i suppose to catch up on my sleep? like..fuck lah..you expect me to wake up damn early..even on weekends? like h-e-l-l-o...im suppose to be enjoying my weekend..ever heard of the phrase "enjoy your weekend" or "t.g.i.f"? if nutrients can be replenished, can't one's body too? i'd be damn tired lah thru'out the week..so definitely i'd prefer to rest during the weekend..

but if i can't even rest at home, then bloody hell..where am i suppose to rest? at the longkang? lepak2 at shopping centres? seat at void decks?

fuck it lah...

zee yg sedang busy

2006-05-05T22:34:00.000+08:00

without me knowing..i've already bcum 2 guys "second girlfriends" ahaha..no lah..not scandals or mistress but just the "title"..ahaha...but their first gfs know lah..haha

farah sedang marah dengan zee yang selalu busy dan rehan yang sedang rehat..ahahaha..farah's bf is rehan and guess what she just told me during erm..chem lecture today..

"zee..rehan kirim salam a long kiss for you"..wahaha..and she gave me the look..haha..no lah..we're frens..ahahaha..funny la, how things actually turn out..haha..

anyways..been helluva week for me..super busy with overlapping activities..CAs have started..Sports Day around the corner,hockey season still not over, MLEP camp in June..what else? hmmm...Stupid profiling course..supp to help us see how we can help ourselves..whatever lah eh...

anyways..i was forced to join the innova speakers thingy but fortunately i didn't enter the finals..ahaha..wasn't betting on it la..coz i like erm..wrote my script like when? the nite before..close to 12am on the day im supp to speak..can't even memo my script..haha..how to speak properly?

haha..oh well..but they did say i did well..eh..biase lah! haha..but erm..sad thing is..i can't recall seeing any of my present classmates who supported me tt day..such an irony..the people who support me are like frm diff classes..haha..those who rarely see me! like..wth..seriously..don't knw how much longer i can hold on in tt class..haha..it's easy to just go in w a smile..talk to them..they talk to you n stuff like tt..but i think it's fucking superficial..

read this

2006-05-01T23:08:00.000+08:00

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
yeah...

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
insya'allah

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
anyway.. my sis got this fren who drinks..

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
then arh,,,

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
after he finished his mug..

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
then he burp....

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
then said. "alhamdulilah..."

wak lu bang bang! ; center-field says:
ahaaah

erm..hehs..

2006-04-29T12:46:00.000+08:00

ok..im fucking bored now..it was kinda fun just now but now the trainer is like introducing some "toys" for digital music...which is like..so freaking expensive..haha..n im not interested in that shit..ahaha..bcoz i dont intend to be a sound engineer..haha..

neways..i bloghopped to naz's blog and chanced upon smth very interesting..ahahaha..check this out!

zee --

[adjective]:

Visually addictive

'How will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

my say? hmm...how can i argue w that? ahahaha...

another camp

2006-04-29T08:59:00.000+08:00

im in school rite now; having nma's training camp.

be back sunday.

i've learnt my lesson the hard way - don't ever think that anyone else will bring a hp charger or that if they do, it won't be compatible for your phone..haha..one way or another..first time i left my charger at home and damn..i regret it to the max!! luckily my nma seniors are damn nice..n i've finally found a charger! ahahaha...btw, my hp batt was full when i went for camp..but just tt you know..haha..sms here n there...bergantung on the phone..used up allllllll my batt!!

ps. hockey season ain't good..and the soccer guys ain't having it better.(tt's what i heard).

back, burnt n black

2006-04-22T18:53:00.000+08:00

as predicted, camp was pretty much predictable..all MOE campsites have about the same things so yeahs, nth new or interesting..for me lah..n a few others...
went to the MAY campsite at sec 2..went to Jln Bahtera Campsite at jc1 and it's like im reliving that camp..

but still, im burnt..haha..i like lah actually..i'd rather be tanned than be porcelain fair..no offence to my mom n whoever tt's fair..hahahaha...

ok ok..hockey matches..haiz..dont wanna talk much..except for yesterday's match..our IJ guys against MI guys..if i were to talk..i would erm..spew vulgarities..so yeahs..for the sake of some people..i won't..hahahaha...

just this, winning by playing dirty; doesn't it affect your conscious? or you don't have one to begin with? now that im saying it, im not only talking about MI or hockey for that matter..but for all sports lah actually...like soccer, basketball..

will you be really proud to brag to others tt you won, not forgetting the fact that you played dirty? trying your best to handicap the opponent just so that they'll be weaker, thanks to u injuring them...in the process, losing respect for each other...some may argue that sports isn't a thing abt respect..but to those people,i say,kindly think again..whatever happened to sportsmanship?

hate ot or love it, im camp-ing 2mr

2006-04-18T21:40:00.000+08:00

and and and..guess what? i've yet to pack! damn..im sooo gonna bring long sleeve 2mr for kayaking bcoz i dont want to get burnt again, like i prev did during obs, even with SUNBLOCK ON!!!! wahaha..

neways...rj match against ij was postponed to 2mr due to the rain in the afternoon just now..most of us were like..dang, here we are..trying to get it done and over with then suddenly..POSTPONED!!! wth..pity the players..don't worry..im not gonna be involved in this season..wait for next season..here i come..wahahaahha..

and erm..im officially discharged!!!! yoohoo..no more missing school lessons, which is a sad thing, really..and no more taking super duper loooong train or bus rides..back and forth..ahakz..im free of future appointments! yeahs...

is it bcoz i wont be w my comp for the next couple of days tt im sprouting nonsense now? shitto..i wanna ct'nue sleeping..(ain't no pig..) but i gotta pack..damn..and think of campfire performance...aaarrggghhh..

sleep debt : PAID

2006-04-16T00:07:00.000+08:00

i think i've accumulated enough of sleep debt for this whole week such that i actually almost slept thru the entire saturday!!!! (while some people go hollabacking - oh, shut up!)

slept at 3++am talking to dearest bro; along..on the phone..then woke up at 3pm..haha..12 hours later...hey can't help it lah..thru out the week soo many activities till i don't feel like coming to school bcoz i wanted to continue sleeping!!!

then after that..can't remember what i did..all i knw was that i read the newspapers around 5 or 6 plus on the bed..and hey, no surprises..i fell asleep again..woke up around 7..hahahaha...then bathe n eat n stuff..

i felt so guilty for sleeping the day away that i tunred on my engine and did chemistry all the way till now..yeahs..u got that right..i was doin work on a saturday nite..sighs..what's happening to me?...neways, all the assignments, tutorials, quizzes due on the 24 april is done!!! at least i have achieved some completion of some sorts! hah!

lets see..nxt week will be another busy week for me..
monday i haf hockey plus cheerleading prac for taurus...tuesday i won't be in school for another doc's appt and wed-fri i'll have that outdoor camp at MOE'S Jalan Bahtera campsite..

i tell you..after being in NPCC and drama n prefectorial board in sec school..im sooo sick of camps..those in school and outside school..each holidays, my three ccaS will organize diff camps...esp during JUNE!!! aarrgghh! one camp after another after another..for like, 3 consecutive years? i still remember my other cca mates had to pack for 3 days but i had to pack for 6-9 days when some of the camps run after one another! My bag was damn big lah! Plus...Outdoor Adv Camp during sec 2 at another MOE campsite, Advanture Training Camp (ATC) at ubin under NPCC and top it off with Outward Bound School for a week, also at Ubin..am i not justified to say tt i've had enuf, i repeat, ENOUGH of camps!!!

rock climbing - done
belaying - done
kayaking round ubin for 8 hrs till i get burnt - done
low elements - done
high elements - done
playing stupid amazing races (can't rmbr how many i've played) - done
ice-breaking games - done
trying to get the introverts to be loud - done
motivating team members - done
getting very frustrated and annoyed at some of the uncooperative ones - done
getting to knw hot guys and the not-so-hot guys - done
getting to knw more extroverts - done
sing-alongs and cheerings and jeerings tt require lozenges aft the camp - done
planning "campfire" performances - done

what else is there tt i forgot? hahahahaa..
i knw la..the grp of people im having the camp with is different so mite have diff experiences..but in essence, camps are always about teamwork, teamwork, teamwork and letting you experience a whole new world of adventure. bull. (read: doing activities the entire day that will tire you out, let u sleep late at night and wake up damn early in the morning and the fact that you mite not bathe!)

Ria 89.7 FM - Fyza 0 and Shai

2006-04-14T12:34:00.000+08:00

they came down to our school..but exclusively for the MLEP students..erm..haha..me,nash and m'linie were like..erm...had this "go fuck off sum peeps" look..haha...some of them were superbly irritating..coz we combined class..so yeahs..

neways..fyza or fiza or fizza was nice..and so was shai..was given a chance to ask them qns..haha..what i asked was..how long does a dj really works, since we only hear them on air for like 3-4 hrs but they don't get paid for goin on air 90-120 hrs per month only rite? haha..shai said that was a good qns..ceyyy..then told us tt officially it's 8 hrs but unofficially, it's all the time..kind of like an artist la..

and i've been hearing the same things la..and that is, if you have the passion, go for it, regardless of what your "it" is..i knw what i hav passion for..so do my friends and teachers..but sadly..the two most important people in my life don't..and i don't think they're gonna support me either..

on a brighter note, i'll be goin to penin later to get my hockey gear..i used the school's shin guard and it was like eeeewwwwww...coz i think someone else used it and it was wet and it was stinky!ok, everybody say eeewwwww...yes..and so..for the life of me...im so not gonna use the sch's one ever again..after a terrible first experience..wahaha..

and aft tt i'll be west-coasting..with the rest of my cck peeps..looking forward to meeting the bdak2 melayu again!!! ok la..not all of them..but erm..haha..its a gathering so u can't expect to have all the people u like only rite? see, im so good!

reunion today!!!

2006-04-12T22:54:00.000+08:00

Thanks to the inter-jc sajak thingy, gotta meet amira, iqmal, dini, faiz, deebz, shakira, khairul, yanty, atiqah, aishah kusairi, fasihah and the list goes on...wahaha...

practically hugged all of 'em haha..miss them la..then they were like having an MI reunion..coz some of them were in MI for the first three months..haha..the atmosphere was just superb..getting tog w ur old buddies again..ceyy..nostalgic eh..haha..surprisingly, ij won first in the comp..if im not wrong..then nj then i dont knw..didnt stay thru' out the show coz supposedly i haf hockey and the bus is supp to come at 4pm but but but..at 4.45, i was still talking to the guys..haha..n our training started at 5.30 instead of 5..so 1/2 hr gone..haiz..

ouh yeah..today is NINA SABRINA'S 18th birfdae..we gave her a garfield pillow which is bright yellow..ahahaha...n some other peeps gave her the sylvester huggie..haha..kesian seh..all the way home..me, wani, adeel, jason and alvin and i think nazrin too, were disturbing her allll the wayyy..haha..hockey peeps are cool!

and yeahs..today, i had my first ever hockey injury..well, actually, it was a head-on collision w bernedette..if dats hw u spell her name..we call her bernie for short..ahaha..i was hit on the rite while she, on the left..benjol seh kepale and aft tt it was soooo bise lah..haha..sab asked me to go buy can drink and sub it for an ice-bag..haha..but now ok lah..steady-bom-pee-pee..haha...

im dreading thursdays. especially 2mr. end sch at 5.40, with PE at 4.40 - 5.40..then then then..got PHYSICS quiz (which i hav yet to study: work, energy,power) at 6pm..

the only thing i like abt 2mr is tt there's no school on friday!!!!!

fuck PIs

2006-04-11T20:13:00.000+08:00

haha..

i really don't have a clue if my PI is correct anot..coz the sample is w jacob n if anything goes to him, confirm the rest of the class won't get to see it..ahakz..

oh well..first time i typed it out, i had less than 500 words n i was like..dang..hw the hell was i supp to expand? haha..just add here and there..things tt can be described in one words i go n beat ard the bush..wahahaha..

kk..this is so random..but erm..hw cum diff pple in my sch thinks i like diff pple? haha..tt is soooo weird..coz i didn't say tt i like anyone of the erm.."nominees"..wahahaha...

studying time..

2006-04-09T22:12:00.000+08:00

spent half of my saturday doin my podcast script..it actually takes a short time but when i timed myself reading the entire script, it was nearly 5 mins and i panicked!!!! because the podcasts of those who have already uploaded theirs spanned frm 1 min to 3min plus..not even reaching 4 mins but mine is like..over 4 minutes..ahaha..

edit like hell till i successfully cut it short to 3mins plus..ahahaha..mu summary skills must be damn good ar? ahahaha...see how lah..already emailed my script to tay..and she said i don't need to see her in the morn ie. 7.20 2mr..this means...i can wake up later!!!! wahahaha..

it's not tt i don't want to wake up early..but i have three people waking up before me..and using the toilet..so, if i must go to school earlier than my usual time, i must wake up before all three of them and that is at erm..5? wahahaha..no way man..NO WAY!!!

and today..impromtu-ly went out w secret agent n studied w him..ahahaha..funny guy la..n now im back at home..

worrying about my P.I.!!! Due on thursday u knw..and oh my god..2mr PE!!!!

hockey is G.R.E.A.T.

2006-04-07T21:41:00.000+08:00

ok ok ok..

im definitely gonna join hockey. but bUt BUT..i've not yet decided to drop dance..i'm definitely not gonna quit iBCS because it serves as a platform for me to hone my skills as a presenter/broadcaster..haha..smth i definitely need on my testimonial seeehhh..

neways..the hockey coach is like..sooo gerek. hahaha..and the people there are waaaayyyy friendlier and "funner" than the volleyballers...oopps..did i just say smth wrong? haha..i don't think so..

told my dad i need to get my gear ready and he asked me to use my cuzzy's stick..i'm actually appalled! hello!! she's been using that stick for so long..until she feels attached to that stick..how can she just give it to me? walao..it doesn't feel good to use someone else's stick tho'..it's like..u're not the owner or smth..get me? haiz..so supportive sia..

neways..have loads of things to do..and i learnt tt in jc, u need to check ur email like REGULARLY!!! especially if you are the CG CHAIRPERSON or your CCA happens to be NEW MEDIA ARTS. gosh..gosh..gosh..

im tired lah actually..haha..

Hollaback CREW FINALS!!!! here we come

2006-04-02T18:56:00.000+08:00

WARNING : LONG POST

TODAY

Went to the screening of ICE AGE 2..lots of FOOD!! yum yum!! courtesy of my dad..but had to wake up in the morning!!! movie was fun..but erm..i was sort of reminded of the times where i'd be cuddling w someone..i mean, a GUY..and i think..been quite a while since i went to the movies w a bf..friends not counted lah..haha..

then aft tt..bcoz of my tons of hmk..had to go home..w azhar..but sadly, none of us brought the keys. so, haha..i had to wait outside the hse while he go and fetch the keys frm my parents somewhere..while waiting..i wasn't bored..bcoz i was taking pix of myself..ahahha..camwhore? you're absolutely right!!!

SATURDAY
ok ok ok..first stop..wanna congratulate my school's cheerleading squad and the outsiders which make up AD ASTRA, which was wrongly spelt and pronounced as ADESTRA by vernon A. they were superb sia..ahakz..went down to padang w eugene, deebz, yu tang, aznita, izdi, jolene, alex n one chi girl whom alex likes..ahahahaha...saw loads of j2s..and ccks alumni tho i didnt approach them..haha..

The funniest part is..i unexpectedly met awie (btw, a cutie by deeb'z standard). It's funny because we live sooo near to each other..and actually wanted to meet up on thursday afternoon but tak jadi bcoz i cmi lah..then aleh2..met at PADANG..of all places..haha..

neways..there were 2 categories..<17 and >17..i wasnt interested in the <17..haha..coz really..some of them, like SCGS and RGS should stick to what they do best - studying!!!! HAHAHAHA..no offence la..it's a JOKE for goodness's sake! NTU HALL 7 was ij's rival i guess..and B2D..i think these three are the best..there's one more by Singapore Poly..but erm..sad to say..not good lah..to me, at least.

FRIDAY
went to TPJC for this "pidato" competition..i don't knw what it's called in ENGLISH..it's like public speaking..except that, there's a second part. the first part is where they rant abt a prepared topic. and the ssecond part is where they are given a topic plus 1 minute to think and then..BAAAM..they have to talk for abt 3 minutes i think..CONGRATU;ATIONS to sri!!! She beat sajc and rjc to get 4th place..there were 12 schs and prizes are given for top 5. sooo proud of her..IJC rules!!!

met syikeen and me n nash were lie running over to her..gaaawwdd..it's been ages since we last saw her..haha..she's the reserved. when i asked her why she's not the speaker, she said "err, bcoz i can't speak fluently in malay!" wahahaha...same prob as me..n she's in njc..ahakz..

met faiz..this guy whom i knew frm ij during the first three months..currently a tpjc-ian..haha..got to knw his friends..and tog with aznita and jazimin..we ate at tampines mall aft tt..one of the guys, hafiz, said" i can't believe i went out with strangers" when all of us are on our way home!!! hahaha..it's true..there were only 3 girls..me, aznita n dalilah frm SA..and a LOT of GUYS..cute ones at THAT!

so yeahs..there u have it..what i've been up to after thursday..gtg..maths assignment waiting for me!